Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting
I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could‘
Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don’t mind sayin’
It’s a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they’d write me a letter
Sayin’ that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could‘
Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could‘
Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting
-Dixie Chicks: Not Ready To Make Nice-
Sunday, May 27, 2007
Saturday, May 19, 2007
un-blinged
13th May, 2pm – 6pm, Dave’s Deli >> it was one of my best 4 hours during that miserable week. I make the first move :) and I was happy with the end results. As I have said before, he makes a lot of attempts when we were at M13, but as we were sharing the same barracks, I just don’t feel right. Perhaps, the timing is right now. I feel that we share enough common ground to become more that ‘hello & goodbye’ sort of friends. We talked a lot, we explore a lot of topics, some were serious, some were just silly…I like the way when he respects my opinions on certain issues even when we were standing on the opposite sides. He doesn’t try to change my mind, he didn’t demand that he was right, he was just happy that we can agree to disagree when we were looking from a different point of view and disagree to agree that we get to see things from a different perspective. It definitely won him a few brownie points. He is overall a nice guy. In my list of dating/relationship requirements, I really didn’t care about a guy’s look or race. It was all about confidence, stability, eloquence, a sense of humor and the ability to hold an interesting conversation. Cassius makes me smile! A lot! :)
I still kept in touch with The Others. I am glad that they are doing ok at the moment. Heard that The British has been unkind…they have been bullying in a subtle kind of way :( It’s just not our luck. If M13 were managed properly, running profitably…we will not have this ending :( It hurts me deeply when one by one, each vent are being closed down for renovation and re-open under a different name. It cut me when I have to give my baby away. There are so many things that I wanted to do. I didn’t even have the time to launch my ‘Coffee Bean’ and ‘Latte’ Mug. I didn’t get the opportunity to indent my Pitchers. My whole 133 Account just gone in one day! :(
Mom is on vacation – to Hong Kong & China with my aunts and uncles. She was so excited. This is her first overseas trip :) She came from a poor family, didn’t have a decent education like the one that my sister and I had, she married my dad and gave him 2 daughters. I remember that there was a time, mom did mention, if she has a proper education, she would not have married dad :) If mom has the opportunities that my sister & I have, I believe she can go far…very far. We live averagely. Sometimes, I wish we had a little bit more money so we can live more comfortable. I’m not saying that I’m not thankful. I am thankful that I have a roof over my head…but it will be nice if we can move out from this 2-room apartment to a 4-room landed property. Dad could have afforded to buy one…but I put my family through shit to support my education. I don’t know whether I can ever re-pay that debt. That is why I have to work hard.
This morning I had brunch in Coffee Bean with a friend; inhaling coffee fumes and having a healthy meal that consist of salads, toast, scramble eggs & non-oily sausages – it’s really important to have friends to motivate you, to lift you up, to teach you. I hurt in places. I couldn’t even think straight, act straight or talk coherently. I’m going to give myself a chance and give it a shot. 150 jigsaw pieces…it certainly looks easy to piece them altogether, unfortunately not. There is 1 particular piece that doesn’t seem to be able to fit in. No matter where I try to place it, somehow it just couldn’t find its place, fit right in with the other pieces to finish a complete puzzle.
I still kept in touch with The Others. I am glad that they are doing ok at the moment. Heard that The British has been unkind…they have been bullying in a subtle kind of way :( It’s just not our luck. If M13 were managed properly, running profitably…we will not have this ending :( It hurts me deeply when one by one, each vent are being closed down for renovation and re-open under a different name. It cut me when I have to give my baby away. There are so many things that I wanted to do. I didn’t even have the time to launch my ‘Coffee Bean’ and ‘Latte’ Mug. I didn’t get the opportunity to indent my Pitchers. My whole 133 Account just gone in one day! :(
Mom is on vacation – to Hong Kong & China with my aunts and uncles. She was so excited. This is her first overseas trip :) She came from a poor family, didn’t have a decent education like the one that my sister and I had, she married my dad and gave him 2 daughters. I remember that there was a time, mom did mention, if she has a proper education, she would not have married dad :) If mom has the opportunities that my sister & I have, I believe she can go far…very far. We live averagely. Sometimes, I wish we had a little bit more money so we can live more comfortable. I’m not saying that I’m not thankful. I am thankful that I have a roof over my head…but it will be nice if we can move out from this 2-room apartment to a 4-room landed property. Dad could have afforded to buy one…but I put my family through shit to support my education. I don’t know whether I can ever re-pay that debt. That is why I have to work hard.
This morning I had brunch in Coffee Bean with a friend; inhaling coffee fumes and having a healthy meal that consist of salads, toast, scramble eggs & non-oily sausages – it’s really important to have friends to motivate you, to lift you up, to teach you. I hurt in places. I couldn’t even think straight, act straight or talk coherently. I’m going to give myself a chance and give it a shot. 150 jigsaw pieces…it certainly looks easy to piece them altogether, unfortunately not. There is 1 particular piece that doesn’t seem to be able to fit in. No matter where I try to place it, somehow it just couldn’t find its place, fit right in with the other pieces to finish a complete puzzle.
Saturday, May 12, 2007
life is the sum of all your choices
3rd May – I think I made a mistake. It’s not a small one, it’s a BIGGIE. I truly regret.
The only thing to do right now – is to pick myself up again, to have the courage to right the wrong. I am quite messed up in the inside right now. I have so much to learn :(
The only thing to do right now – is to pick myself up again, to have the courage to right the wrong. I am quite messed up in the inside right now. I have so much to learn :(
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