Friday, June 27, 2008

a boy who thinks he can

Germany tops Turkey 3-2; into the Euro 2008 final :) Yay!

That’s the third and ‘killer’ goal from young German hotshot Philipp Lahm. The Germans nailed it.

Spain beat Russia 3-0 this morning :) Whee! What a phenomenon.

The Finals: Clash of the titans. Go Spain! :)

Monday, June 23, 2008

The Spanish Connection

Spain beat Italy :) Whee!

My choice of Player of the tournament: Cesc Fabregas.
His looks are simply smashing, he is extremely skillful, he is hot and courageous.
He will be the next Raul; or even better.
Go Spain! :) You guys are no longer the underdogs – truly a genuine contender now.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Go Fresh

Euro 2008 – I have not been following the tournament as closely as I want it to be on the telly…due to the time difference; but hopefully I will be able to catch the finals. For me, it’s been a very disappointing tournament overall. Portugal was the favorite; unfortunately Cristiano Ronaldo didn’t live up to the expectations. The Manchester United winger has become bigger, stronger, fiercer and more effective with his recent forms in the EPL and Champions League…but he didn’t establish himself well to score the critical goals in the Euro.
I was also hoping that France will be able to beat Italy this time around, but they too failed. I think it’s time to say goodbye to the veterans such as Patrick Vieira, Lilian Thuram & Thierry Henry…the French need bright youngsters like Frank Ribery to create the magic again.
Holland’s brilliant up-rising performance has been an interesting surprise but they too fell in the very last minute. With Ruud Van Nistelrooy, Arjen Robben, Ryan Babel & Robin Van Persie – they definitely have formed another golden generation of the Oranje with good attacking qualities.
Thank goodness, that the Germans pass through - they have a very young & good looking team who plays maturely.
So hopefully, Spain will be able to sail through as well. Fernando Torres has played a vital role in Liverpool and he is definitely looking stronger and sharper than ever. Linking up with Cesc Fabregas, I feel that both of the goal-scorers will be able to provide the finishing touches.
But don’t write off Turkey and Russia yet…they can deliver some unexpected surprises to the game.

Movie: Kung Fu Panda – a good under-panda movie, its funny, the animation is real & technologically impressive, it’s hilarious and very enjoyable. It’s a very inspiring tale of how determination helped the less disadvantaged good guys come up tops against the odds. There is no secret ingredient…it’s all in the mind. Positive Attitude, Positive Thinking, Positive Behavior.

I have big shoes to fill - Let’s Go Fresh! :)

Saturday, June 21, 2008

Character-Building Days

(Celtic lied)

The French >> I had been artificially baited, and was gullible enough to bite…but in a way, I think it’s a good thing. I need to make my footsteps in another place, where I know no one, where everything will be safe, where I will be relatively safe :)
They will forever see me as the follower while Celtic is the leader. I’ll live with it...I have to.
I’m the least competitive and ambitious person in the room…but whenever it comes to Celtic, I began to compete very aggressively…I don’t know why…maybe because Celtic always makes me feel small and inferior in front of everyone…that is why I want to & I have to; proof to Celtic and to them that I am not that weak.

I know what I need to do. I need to disentangle myself…I cannot let this competitiveness between the 2 of us drags me down. It has become a very unhealthy competition; to a certain extent where I feel hurt and I’m not being myself any longer. I don’t want to be a total bitch, which has been happening a lot, really. Celtic can't see my side of it, Celtic ask me to talk but yet Celtic doesn’t listen…Celtic don't listen! Celtic refuses to listen to everything I have to say…my opinions/solutions don’t counts. Even at times if I did tell Celtic, bluntly; Celtic comes up with something to pit against me. It doesn’t make my work fun anymore. And lately, I'm getting really, really tired of it. I'm banging my head against the glass, but it seems unbreakable :(

I suppose that I shall have to wear this mask…there is no possible way I could take it off...for now.

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

food; a Malaysian perspective…

My Top 10 Favorite Malaysian Food:
(1) Egg Tart
(2) Nasi Lemak
(3) Tau Foo Fah
(4) Roti Canai
(5) Char Kway Teow
(6) Roti Bakar
(7) Nasi Kandar
(8) Laksa
(9) Wan Tan Mee
(10) Pisang Goreng

Speaking of food…I haven’t had KFC for the last 6 months :( I’m craving…
Speaking of KFC…they have just introduced their breakfast menu and one of their dishes is the Nasi Lemak Ayam! I think the Colonel is having an identity crisis. The food market is very competitive, intense market share competition, customers wants convenience & varieties…but serving Nasi Lemak Ayam (yes, there is chicken in the rice)…but the brand, the concept, the food – it just doesn’t seem to tie up very nicely from a consumer perspective. Fast food…fried chicken…Nasi Lemak! Oh yes, a global brand with a localization approach. But for me…it’s inconsistency and lack of direction.
However, McDonalds is doing rather well; this is because they stick with their burgers & fries image. To make their brand healthier, they claim that they used canola oil, less fat, less sugar, less salt, less butter and less cream where possible etc. And now all of a sudden in the food market, Doughnuts & Cupcakes are currently the ‘in’ thing. Look at the long queue of customers waiting in front of Big Apple and J.Co. I bet the next big thing will be Pies or Lollipops :)

And I’m also craving for seafood pasta now…a huge mountain of salmon, prawns, scallops, squids, clams, herbs, wine…absolutely divine :)

Sunday, June 15, 2008

my interpretation

Happy Father’s Day Pa :)

Today I am so proud of my students!
I stepped out a little bit from my comfort zone and volunteer to be an assistant teacher in the Junior Sunday School class for this month. As today is Father’s Day, the rascals put up a singing performance for the audiences. Some of them were shy but the ten of them did sing their heart out…but the ending was a little bit cacat because they have forgotten on what they need to do next…nonetheless, it was great. They are noisy and a handful to handle but I think they are at a glorious age - innocent, inquisitive, spirited and honest - it’s definitely that moment in time before they enter another stage and get swept away by the “big kid things”. No matter what their ages are, children will be children.

When it comes to church matters, I'm as usual; the black sheep, the outcast and honestly I cannot identify the concept of being 'more Christian' :) But I thank GOD for his love and generosity.

For this month, I need to start exercising, getting myself into shape. I desperately want to be young, fit, healthy and active. I want to keep an active social life, get out & about, paint my nails and go to concerts. I want to keep my feet on the ground and have a sense of humor about life. I think my greatest fear right now is turning into a frumpy Chinese Aunty while I’m only 26! :) I’m not THAT afraid of growing old. It’s going to happen anyway, I may as well have a positive outlook on it. But I am interested to know how to take even better care of myself plus my skin as well. I see the dullness. I feel the lack of moisture and perkiness. All signs of aging.

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

The Red Herring

The French – I took a deep breath; and jumped.
My future is dangling in mid-air. The ocean’s too deep and I don’t have an oxygen tank.

Sunday, June 08, 2008

The Lazy List Of Fives

Tommy bought me a birthday lunch…the both of us chill out together in Coffee Bean…we spend hours talking…we don’t give each other advice or counseling, we just talk and talk and talk and talk…and then finish off with a big laugh! It’s so good for the soul :)
Conversations revolved around our ex-colleagues and managers, new faces, our own work although I’m still skeptical about providing too much information.

Work Tales - funny how life turns out in such a short space of time >> First, Fredrik called Haakon & myself up the other day; inviting us to re-join the company again…because...The Bitch & Mei Yin jointly resigned! Shocking! I nearly fainted! :) The next big surprise is that Guillermo will be joining the team plus former employees Stephanie & Kelly! Oh my gosh! What prompted this sudden move?! It’s like the new team storming in and getting rid of the old team!

Less than a week later, Pietro left the English’s camp within 24 hours! Comments are unreachable at the moment. But apparently the resignation is due to a rift with Boss who awarded the ‘Amber’ code (which is equivalent to a D grade) in Pietro’s appraisal. Woah!

Thirdly, Juan has been very unhappy under Atticus and is eyeing for a lateral transfer to another division but Atticus refuse to let Juan off the hook until there is a permanent replacement. Tommy suggested that I should take this opportunity to return home. I would go home if I knew where home is :(

With Guillermo & Pietro gone and with Pierre Andre who will be leaving for London soon, Boss & Haakon called Celtic and myself up to fill in the MerchPlan post ASAP.

Conclusion: I’m Lost! Perhaps I need to start anew? Again?
My current work is good…is just that I don’t want to be under Celtic anymore…am very dissapointed with the leadership, focus & strategies of the top manangement. So where does that leave me? It’s such a complex issue. I’m not so sure what I’m supposed to do anymore.

I guess it's time I run far, far away; find comfort in pain,
All pleasure's the same: it just keeps me from trouble,
Hides my true shape, like Dorian Gray.
(Tears And Rain > James Blunt)

Saturday, June 07, 2008

beautiful dawn

My Songs, My Memories, My Life:

Song Title // Artiste:
Stay The Same // Joey McIntyre
Superman (It’s Not Easy) // Five For Fighting
You’re Beautiful // James Blunt
I Turn To You // Christina Aguilera
Bad Day // Daniel Powter
Beautiful // Christina Aguilera
Everybody’s Free (To Wear Sunscreen) // Baz Luhrmann
I Don’t Want To Be // Gavin DeGraw
Welcome To My Life // Simple Plan
Kau Ilhamku // Man Bai
Numb // Linkin Park
In The End // Linkin Park
You Learn // Alanis Morrisette
Better Man // Robbie Williams
Home // Chris Daughtry
Not Ready To Make Nice // Dixie Chicks
Hand In My Pocket // Alanis Morrisette
What If // Kate Winslet
Man In The Mirror // Michael Jackson

**There is no fun in finding out that other people are exceptionally intelligent and I am just a piece of possibly-less-than-mediocre scum. How does one spell s-t-o-o-p-i-d in bold? I'm not good at anything. Stupid standards to live up to. Yuck**

Sunday, June 01, 2008

mickey & minnie

Dinner at Sakae Sushi with The Others – in conjunction with Wyatt’s promotion to Job Grade 4 at the English’s camp and also cum farewell dinner for Damian who will be leaving for Hong Kong on the 12th of this month. Damian have secured a buying position with a sourcing & trading company on the island. Lucky brat :) officially an expat now!
Dinner was fun, the conversation was pretty much the same, but it does add some colour to my life…chatting and smiling, everyone was just so happy!

So, I’m turning 26 on this coming Wednesday. It’s an anti-climactic event really.
Yes, I’m one year older. But everyone knows the big celebrations, the big milestones and the big reflections on life are saved for the big 3-0. Yet I’m getting pretty edgy about turning 26 this year. I’m not sure why. The feeling is so incompatible with the rest of my life. People kindly pointed out that I already have everything except for a husband, kids, a car, a house, travel, work overseas – maybe that’s what I should aim for.


I genuinely feel like I haven’t accomplished anything yet. Accomplished what?
I don’t know. I feel like I haven’t quite reached my potential – that I’ve been dabbling around the edges of something significant for most of my life. I’ve gone through various difficulties in life, I am suitably adventurous, sociable, and all that - but when it comes to taking risk, I was overly calculative and cautious. I always considered the consequences - and while that sounds like a valuable trait to have - I didn’t take many risks. I didn’t step very far from my comfort zone.
On the other hand, I still feel like I’m 21. I still feel like a silly teenager, happy, girly, irresponsible and selfish. Deep down I don’t feel like a “grown up” :)
Will I ever feel like a grown up? Will I always feel 21?
I know that there’s still SO MUCH in life to try, learn and experience! So much to do! I want it all! Life! Needs to be lived!