Saturday, February 28, 2009

Far From The Madding Crowd

We had a Merchandize Nite Out at Bread & Olives Café in Ampang Lookout Point.
I was impressed with the character and style of the place…it was situated in a breathtaking location…everyone who turned up looked fantastic! :)
However the buffet dinner was lacking in variety :( I’m a foodie and I actually expect that there will be a wider choice of selection. The dessert was very disappointing.
But the companion of my fellow comrades and the incredible night view was what I needed the most. Surrounding myself with things that nourish me. I am hopelessly easy to be made happy with good food, new books, my family and dear friends.
Looking at the beautiful night view – all of a sudden I realize how beautiful my country is.

I think the whole political scene in Malaysia right now is a big joke. I think its funny how these crazy politicians still think that they're doing great things for this nation.
Malaysia is amazing. Malaysians are cool… we're not half-bad when it comes to honesty, being warm and sincere, and friendly, and rather open to new things, and being very determined and hardworking. Malaysia Boleh! Yes, we do have serious corruption issues here, the sense of security are bad, our qualities of service is so-so, our qualities of products are not up to mark yet, our education system is so stuffed & screwed up, and our efficiency is not so efficient at all…but we will get there…someday. If AirAsia can do it, then everybody can do it.
I hope that all Malaysians will take a grip of their own lives and design their own destiny. Don't complain, don't wait for handouts, just go out there and make a difference. Don't be negative and have a real can-do mind-set.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

time for me to go home

Nautism Contract - i hate Iron Butterfly.
i really do.
i am angry and very very disappointed.
Iron Butterfly did not even bother to give it a try; didn’t even put up a fight - just concede defeat.
i really have no respect for Iron Butterfly anymore.
it’s horrid and kinda cruel of Iron Butterfly.
again and again Iron Butterfly puts me in trouble.
never gives me a solution - i'm the one who re-solved everything in the end.

i'm actually just a fleshy little human being; young and energetic, but with only a slightly stronger than usual stamina and resistance to pain. i'm ready...Ready to chase the Dream.
it’s easy sometimes to forget that i’m still yingze.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

my sunday little adventure

driving down to Bangsar with Baby Sis. The purpose was to look at the house that Baby Sis will be renting with her college mates. Yup, my baby sister is moving out and up :) It’s her decision, it’s her call. She is already an adult; she knows what is black, what is white and what is grey. I will support her emotionally and financially all the way. I don’t want her to go through what I have been through. I also don’t want her to spend her university days worrying about money. Feeling guilty. To me, that is not an ideal way to spend the most crucial stage in your life. I don’t want that guilty feeling to haunt the rest of her life like it haunts me. I take the responsibility that my family couldn’t own a bigger house because my Pa uses his money to support my education in Perth. But I have no regrets. It was the best time of my life :)
It was a townhouse, with lots of stairs…the price range is slightly pricey, but hey – it’s a Bangsar address, what do you expect…3 well-sized bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, a living room, a kitchen, the house was not on a busy road, not near power lines, near shopping centers, no garden (all is concrete tiles, so it’s easier for them to maintain) and the place is clean. Plus, there are police officers on motorbikes that patrol the roads frequently too. I think it was a good fine. Nice residential area. I am going to miss her lots :) All by myself! *sob*sob*

the toll on the Federal Highway

entering the KL border

lunchtime burgers at DaraBif in Hartamas. I had their popular Lamb Glam Burger and it was yummy. I peeled open the wrapper and breathed in the mix of soaking rich velvety aromas. They were immaculate :)
Then we went shopping, hoping to catch some good buys from those independent labels. I began to develop a liking for independent labels design because their designs are unique, one of a kind and not mass produced. Totally a fan right now of Blook, Cats Whiskers and Little Black Book. Their clothes are classically stylish - minimal, slightly embellished, neutrals, simple but unique designs with timeless fabrics. Heaps of originality too! And I bought a very nice top for only RM 10! :) And these small independent boutiques also have well-kept stocks of a great range of party dresses, simple dresses, stylish evening gowns and standout designer dresses. Definitely the place to go if you’re looking for a great outfit for a special occasion. I liked so many of them! Plus a really nice range of handbags, heels, gorgeous designer jewellery and other cool accessories. I really enjoyed being in these shops. There is a “homegrown and proud of it” feel about it.

going home. Today’s driving adventure is something new for me for this month of February because this is my first time driving down to Bangsar and Hartamas. I have been spoilt rotten by my friends all these while who always volunteer to drive me around :)

i look back on my life, and wonder…

Happy moments, PRAISE GOD.
Difficult moments, SEEK GOD.
Quiet moments, WORSHIP GOD.
Painful moments, TRUST GOD.
Every moment, THANK GOD.

Saturday, February 21, 2009

nothing and everything had changed

Work Tales – on Thursday & Friday respectively; I’ve worked till 12am because the team hadn’t got the assortment right for USJ 19. I only have 5 elements, but I have been adding, eliminating, changing, improvising, compacting and optimizing the range since December last year and still cannot get the variants right as per the management expectations. This mini-hyper format is sure is challenging. (Yawn). I’m so tired :) Lots have happen. Targets are still unmet and for the most part the market is still very soft. Things are taking longer to materialize, problems are coming in non-stop. The bicycles issues at Kappel, the high stock value at IDS, the Nautism contract, money drying up, the Golf Counter in Tropicana etc etc. I spent sleepless nights worrying.
I even brought my work back home with me. I know it's the weekend; but I just had to! I'm so ridiculously addicted to my job! I'm hopeless :)

“You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be or could be; the white dress, the prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete & utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, the Prince Charming, they were so close; you could taste them. But eventually as you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and the people that they can trust. But the thing is, it’s hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely because almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith…that one day they will open their eyes and it will all come true”

Sunday, February 15, 2009


Remember them? I wonder where they are now. How they look like? Isaac, Taylor & Zac.

I have a weakness for boy bands. Due to their good looks, charming-boyish smile and easy-to-sing-along pop song. Their looks are the big attractions. But I won’t admit this in public, not at this age :)

The best boy band ever – got to be Take That & Boyzone :)

Enjoy the MmmBop song, I do.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

This is a lesson in life

I think I am going crazy.

One day I will be happy. DELIRIOUSLY happy. I will wake up in the morning and I will be literally singing with glee and gladness from my ear lobes to my toes. Everything is wonderful and nothing can go wrong.

Next day I will be anxious. I’m tense. I’m stressed. I worry and I bite my finger nails. I fret, agonized and lose sleep over the smallest, tiniest details.

Next day I will be angry. I am frustrated, irritable, easily annoyed and very short-tempered. I will shout at the supplier. Snap at my colleagues. Growl at random people I meet during the day.

Next day I will be sad. Really, really sad. I am miserable and depressed. Nothing is going right; and I so want to curl up on the couch and cry.

Realized that this is just a phase :)

-Joey McIntyre: Stay The Same-

Don't you ever wish you were someone else
You were meant to be the way you are exactly
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same, cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be if you could realize, all the dreams you have inside
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say

Just open up your heart and let it show you the way
Believe in yourself. Reach down inside
The love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself, you will come alive
Have faith in what you do. You'll make it through

Monday, February 09, 2009

may GOD saves

Simple Plan: Me Against The World
We're not gonna be
Just apart of their game
We're not gonna be
Just the victims
They're taking our dreams
And they tear them apart
Til everyone's the same
I've got no place to go
I've got no where to run
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always say
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've gotta prove them wrong
Me against the world
It's me against the world
We won't let them change
How we feel in our hearts
We're not gonna let them control us
We won't let them shove
All their thoughts in our heads
And we'll never be like them
I've got no place to go
I've got no where to run
They love to watch me fall
They think they know it all
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always say
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I'm gonna prove them wrong
It's me against the world
Me against the world
Now I'm sick of this waiting
So come on and take your shot
You can spit all your insults
But nothing you say is gonna change us
You can sit there and judge me
Say what you want to
We'll never let you in
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
Me against the world
I'm a nightmare, a disaster
That's what they always said
I'm a lost cause, not a hero
But I'll make it on my own
I've got to prove them wrong
They'll never bring us down
We'll never fall in line
I'll make it on my own
Me against the world

Sunday, February 08, 2009

the ballads of Bowen

CRUSH: Crystal Hubbard.
Just finished my first book of 2009 :)

It’s a story about sportswriter Miranda Penny (who is of African-American-Brazilian descent) who writes about balls and big sticks; who finds herself unexpectedly falling in love with Welsh rock star Lucas Fletcher. No stranger to the pitfalls of dating a celebrity, Miranda would rather shun true love than risk having her heart broken by the one man with whom she might find it. She finds both of their careers are risky as they are surrounded by gorgeous, sexy, wealthy men and women which offer tons of lust & temptations everywhere they goes. So this is where the hero comes in and is very determined to teach Miranda about trust and fidelity.

It’s truly reflect the actual world of the entertainment industry. People in this line of work – is not conducive to monogamous relationships :) It’s a very light book to read, truly enjoyable, no dull bits, the love scenes detailing was great (the written words make it so arty and the passionate love-making process is just so beautiful) and the one liners from the supporting cast was witty & funny. All of the characters were suitably developed and straightforward, which made the narrative easy to follow. Life imitating art or is art imitating life? If this book is being adapted to the big screen – I think Jon Bon Jovi and Eva Mendes will fit into the lead parts very nicely. They make a beautiful pair.

I love reading. I like reading from all genres. Trashy chick-lit, hardcore sci-fi, fantasy, thrillers, crime, classics and comics. I think life is too short to read crap books; so I only read books that come highly recommended. Read as much as you can; filling your brain with knowledge, studies, different opinions and anecdotes. And I believe you should keep an open mind as well.

**Stephen Gordon Waldock. I don’t know why all of a sudden this name cross my mind. It has been 4 years. I will always treasure those first experiences :) For what it's worth, I did actually love him. I’m one lucky woman. I’m eager to try again!

Friday, February 06, 2009

butt face

This has been a very long, tiring, crazy, messy, painful and torturous week for me.

I’m amazingly stressed out with my work.

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

puisi cinta

Liverpool's Fernando Torres (bottom centre) celebrates with teammates including Dirk Kuyt (top right) and Jose Manuel Reina (left) after scoring against Chelsea during their English Premier League soccer match at Anfield Stadium, Liverpool, England. 2-0!

Sunday, February 01, 2009

berani mati

Last night, Celtic and myself attended Stewart’s CNY open house cum little Kendra’s 1 year old birthday party. The buffet spread was good, I get to meet new people and checking out what the guest are wearing :) We were placed at a small table with 3 other people. It turn out that 1 of them is Danny Chow! Danny Chow is my categories predecessor! I have heard so much about him from multiple internal and external sources. All of the good stuffs, not even one negative comment. He is that good. He built up the department and brought it to the highest peak ever in 2006 & 2007 single handedly before he left the French and joined the English instead…now am wondering if I can repeat the feat as well or do one step better :( That is his work ethics, however on the personality level; he looks a bit gay-ish. He is certainly not a hot piece of ass :)

*Good looking guys are only there for me to lust after...and it's only physical attraction. What I find most appealing AND attractive is a person's mind. I like having long conversations and I need to be intellectually stimulated. So if it's all brawns & no brains...I might just leave.

Tomorrow, back to work. Got to watch out for Celtic :) Jealousy and envy is brewing. As always, I will remain low-profile and humble in my actions. I will shout out my achievements and highlight my strengths when I need to; when the time calls for it. I don’t have to keep repeating myself non-stop on an everyday basis like Celtic. People will get bored. I think I make the right decision. Forget the past failures. They are merely lessons along the way. We can either treat them as temporary setbacks or as a permanent barrier to all we envision our lives to be. You can if you think you can.

GOD – please let Liverpool beat Chelsea tonight.
Die-die, the Reds must secure a win.