Tuesday, May 23, 2017
Aiyo…I so screwed up the whole thing today. I am very worried…what if I lost everything…both of the G13’s offer and The Japanese employment. God, this morning I got prayed You know…I prayed…I prayed that You will put a guard over my mouth…pray that You will guide my choices of words today as I hand in my resignation letter, I pray that You will direct my steps today. Mana tahu, all the terbalik things happen. I should have told Celtic that I am not doing buying and put a full stop to it. Just let Celtic guess where I am going. In the end, I put my foot in my mouth…when Celtic question…I was not steady enough and say – yes, I am heading back to G13, I will be under Marcus, I will be doing Data, Cat Man & Trade Marketing. I really feel like whacking my head. What If Celtic uses this info to sabo me? What if I lost everything and put my family in debts, at risk of losing everything too…what have I done God…I have destroyed my chances. Somemore, I so clever, I told Marcus that I won’t reveal further. Stupid me! Somemore, I will be on leave all the way from 2/6 till 11/6. Anything can happen…people will take this opportunity to kill me off…especially Celtic; full of hatred, envy & jealousy. But when Stewart question me this afternoon, Stewart like don’t know like that lah…but Stewart can pretend lor…there are no secrets between Stewart & Celtic. Shit lor!
God, today…You really make my heart kembang, kecut, kembang, kecut…like a roller coaster ride like that.
Then, the above words came in, from one of the Church WatsApp group…suddenly I feel so assured…God, you know my fear…now I don’t want to think about it anymore, I leave my 2017 Life Board into Your mighty hands…GOD DIRECT MY 2017 STEPS…WHERE GOD GUIDES, GOD PROVIDES!
Posted by yingze at 10:12 PM
Monday, May 22, 2017
Sunday, May 21, 2017
God is able to bless you abundantly, so that…you will abound in every good work.
Imagine going on a trip without luggage. No basic necessities. No change of clothing. No money or credit cards. Sounds both unwise and terrifying, doesn’t it?
But that’s exactly what Jesus told His 12 disciples to do when He sent them out on their first mission to preach and heal. Take nothing for the journey except a staff, said Jesus. No bread, no bag, no money in your belts. Wear sandals but not an extra shirt.
Yet later on when Jesus was preparing them for their work after He was gone, He told His disciples - if you have a purse, take it, and also a bag; and if you don’t have a sword, sell your cloak and buy one.
So what’s the point here? It’s about trusting God to supply.
When Jesus referred back to that first trip, He asked the disciples – when I sent you without purse, bag or sandals, did you lack anything? And they answered, Nothing. The disciples had everything they needed to carry out what God had called them to do. He was able to supply them with the power to do His work.
Do we trust God to supply our needs? Are we also taking personal responsibility and planning? Let’s have faith that He will give us what we need to carry out His work.
You are good, Lord, and all You do is good.
Help me in my endeavors to pray and to plan and to trust You.
God’s will done in God’s way will never lack God’s supply.
Posted by yingze at 11:35 PM
Every successful athlete has to trust the coach enough to do whatever the coach asks them to for the good of the team.
We say to our Savior and Lord – I Trust You. Whatever You want me to do, I am willing. Then He transforms us by renewing our minds to focus on the things that please Him.
It’s helpful to know that God will never call on us to do something for which He has not already equipped us.
As Paul reminds us – we have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us.
Knowing that we can trust God with our lives, we can abandon ourselves to Him, strengthened by the knowledge that He created us and is helping us to make this effort in Him.
There is no risk in abandoning ourselves to God.
Posted by yingze at 11:17 PM
We serve a God who loves us more than our work.
Oh it’s true that God wants us to work to feed our families and to responsibly take care of the world He created. And He expects us to serve the weak, hungry, naked, thirsty and broken people around us even as we remain alert to those who have not yet responded to the Holy Spirit’s tug on their lives.
And yet we serve a God who loves us more than our work.
We must never forget this because there may come a time when our ability to do for God is torn from us by health or failure or unforeseen catastrophe. It is in those hours that God wants us to remember that He loves us not for what we do for Him but because of who we are – His Children! Once we call on the name of Christ for salvation, nothing – trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword – will ever again separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
When all we can do or all we have is taken from us, then all He wants us to do is rest in our identity in Him.
Father, help us never lose sight of the unconditional love You have for us, and let me hold on to that hope when our labor and the fruit of our labor are gone.
The reason we exist is to be in fellowship with God.
Posted by yingze at 11:02 PM
The voice of the Lord strikes with flashes of lighting…the Lord gives strength to his people; the Lord blesses his people with peace. He gives strengths to endure, to be patient, to be kind, to sit quietly, to get up & go, to do nothing at all.
May the God of peace be with you.
Calm my spirit in the storms, Lord.
Grant me Your peace and the strength to walk through this day.
Faith connects our weaknesses to God’s strength.
Posted by yingze at 10:49 PM
Trade Planning Manager
I did not seek for this job, I did not even apply for this job…it was Marcus who WatsApp me with this offer…
When I didn’t email my resume over to Marcus earlier on…it was Marcus who reminded me for the second time…
Marcus also prep me on Sörenstam before the job interview…
I did not state my expected salary…THANK YOU GOD, PRAISE TO THE LORD, BLESS YOU GOD for blessing me with RM8500!
The timing was perfect…The Japanese gave me an increment of RM280 (RM7280) and a bonus; unexpectedly...before the offer came in.
I don’t want to do anymore buying…when I was with The French…I was aiming for the SDD role…but it was a role within Team Baz…this role is much more broader and in-depth.
Sigh…I have my doubts too, God…can I thrive? Can I manage? Can I contribute? Can I get along well with everybody? Will people support me? Will I do well in my new role? The English had a VSS exercise, The Japanese are transferring some staffs to the store level (on a batch by batch basis), will G13 be doing something similar? Somemore hor…I have to serve a 3 month’s notice…anything can happen within these 3 months…what if Mr. Horton’s secretary found a new job…what if Marcus found a new job too…or what if Marcus have been re-designated to another portfolio. What if all of these was a fraud? What if I was cheated & conned?
God, I hold on to Your Words, I hold on to Your Stories, I hold on to YOU!
Posted by yingze at 10:42 PM
God uses broken things beautifully:
Broken clouds pour rain
Broken soil sets as fields
Broken crop yields seeds
Broken seeds give life to new plants
So when you feel you are broken, be rest assured that God is planning to utilize you for something great.
Empire Damansara Perdana, SOHO 1 >> drop by at Tommy’s studio unit yesterday afternoon…Tommy’s second last day in KL. Tommy’s flight to Singapore is at 2pm today. Went there to collect Tommy’s books. Tommy is giving them away, so I took back 4 bags full!
(1) Tommy also mention to me that Emerson (HR) also called Tommy, ask me why I didn’t prompt Tommy earlier…hahaha…
(2) Tommy ask…if I am doing Trade Planning…why I didn’t consider The English…why G13.
(3) Tommy said that the Trade Planning Department is the engine for The English’s business. In G13, it’s more of a coordinating role. Tommy did not comment whether I make the right decisions or the wrong decisions…but I can see for sure that Tommy was unsure of my new direction.
(4) I acknowledge that…I will be playing the bad guy role…I have to be demanding and challenge the buyers on every angle. Especially for the Grocery, Fresh, Non Food and Health & Beauty…where I don't have much experience...where I don't know anything at all...I will have to be like Stewart…using logic, rationality, quantified things, fair & reasonableness. I will have to invest my time & energy to study the numbers, to get the facts right, to see the patterns & formations.
(5) I think it’s a subtle warning from Tommy that uncooperative people will be my source of frustrations.
(6) This opportunity is really moving me out from my very own comfort zone. I am not going to let this learning opportunity to slip from me again, like the Colgate Palmolive opportunity. I need to make a exit plan from merchandising…earn sufficiently to pay off all of my pending debts…and then…let’s see what God have in store for me…if not now, when...
(7) I am just going to do my best in everything, be on time, be gracious to everyone and live out my live for God.
Posted by yingze at 10:21 PM
Enter into His gates with Thanksgiving and into His courts with Praise; be Thankful unto Him, and Bless His Name.
I gave Emerson (HR) my 2 reference point of contact: Tommy & Leonardo. Emerson (HR) actually called them…OMG…
Leonardo: Hi, planning to join back G13?
Me: Hi Leonardo. How r u? They offer me a new portfolio. No more buying
Leonardo: I’m fine. Just receive call from HR asking about u. Don’t worry. All good comments
Me: They really call to cross check
Leonardo: You don’t want to do buying after so many years…?
Me: Thank u. Need rest. I think time to re-skill. U got miss buying?
Leonardo: I’m still buying but different product…you know for construction use.
Me: I c. U got miss hyper?
Leonardo: Of course not
Hahaha…see, hyper is so stressful…
Posted by yingze at 9:50 PM