Sunday, June 18, 2017

I Know Everything

May & June – what a month it has been for me…THANK YOU GOD, PRAISE TO THE LORD, BLESS YOU GOD…indeed it is true…blessed for those who mourned, for they will be comforted…enjoying the highs & lows and see what God has to offers...unless a grain of wheat falls into the earth and dies, but if it dies, it bears much fruit...

We often have more questions than answers. We wonder about the whys, whens and hows of life – often forgetting that though we do not know everything, we know the God who does.

How comforting to know God loves us perfectly, is fully aware of what we will face today, and He knows how best to help us in every circumstance of our life.

Our knowledge will always be limited, but knowing God is what matters most. We can trust Him.

Thank You, Lord, that You know everything about me and what I need.

Knowing God is what matters most.

Leaning On Jesus

We may not be able to touch Jesus physically, but we can entrust the weightiest circumstances of our lives to Him. He said – Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.

How blessed we are to have a Savior whom we can trust to be faithful through every circumstance of our lives!
Are you leaning on Him today?

Dear Lord Jesus, help me to lean on You today and to trust You as my source of strength & hope. I cast all my cares on You and praise You because You are faithful.

Jesus alone gives the rest we need.

Still praying for healing…recovery from my acne breakout. Today is my 9th day on medication…yes, there are improvements, however the frustrating part is that, there are still new ones popping out. The old one become dried & dead…but there are still the new ones! Meaning that I am still not fully recover yet :( adoi

Better Than A Pinata

By Grace you have been saved!
Thank You for Your mercy, Lord, which is great & free!
We have been saved by grace. Now we enjoy the many blessings that come by grace.

Saturday, June 17, 2017

we just talk shit

Today, Celtic said to me that Celtic want to call Marcus…adoi…and say that I no yee hei (loyalty)…I think I have help you enough…both Wayne & I are doing all of the work…you only goyang kaki there and pretend that you are working…duh…I also malas want to layan Celtic.

And I also didn’t even bother to pre-empt Marcus about this. Why Marcus recommend me, Marcus have the reasons. Marcus also knows Celtic punya perangai.

And God also can see who is coming up against me…God says that everything is fine, God has everything in control and under control, God will not fail me. I am not going to trigger anything. Wait & See. Things will just revolve by itself. I now realize that I am always the one who trigger things, no obedience on my part…hahaha…now I just let the people, things, circumstances revolve by itself, feel God’s presence and see God’s plans for me to reveal by itself. Isn’t this how the G13 offer came about? Isn’t this how the buy out plan came about? THANK YOU GOD, PRAISE TO THE LORD, BLESS YOU GOD!

Friday, June 16, 2017

The Junkyard Genius

Lord, I thank You today for Your Amazing Grace!
Jesus is the Restorer in life.

Emerson (HR) and Marcus WatsApp messages.


I want to cry already…

I was so in fear…afraid that I will lose The Japanese’s employment and the G13 offer after my disaster conversation with Celtic the other day. Sensing that there is much resentment, anger, bitterness, jealousy & envy in Celtic…I know Celtic can do anything…absolutely anything and Celtic is so unpredictable that I can’t figure out what is Celtic’s next move will be. I admit, I was very fearful...what if Celtic destroys or sabo whatever that I have right now or what I am about to have. But with the above messages…I just feel so loved, I feel so safe, I feel so blessed, I feel so assured, I feel so wanted…Amen & Amen.

travelling / freedom / exploring

Marcus: Hey J___! Sörenstam getting your number from me, she will call u up.

Me: Morning. Ok. Wats ur advise?

Marcus: Morning! She will buy you off.

I roll my eyes at them

Emerson (HR): Based on your joining date it would be on the 23 August. However due to the urgency we would need you onboard earlier. We will like to do a buy out for one month. Can you kindly provide us your acceptance of resignation letter and buy out amount for a month from you hr.

Me: Ohhh…ok, let me get back to u. Thank you.

Emerson (HR): Ok sure. Can you revert to me as soon as possible on this? Any updates.

Me: Let me get back to u. Coz, earlier on, there was no buy out plan, I thus hav given my word tat I will serve 3 months notice. So, let me sort things out. And will get back to u asap. Thank u.

Emerson (HR): Ok sure thank you. Any updates?

Me: Morning Emerson (HR). Plz hold for a while. Bosses are in meeting. Do not hav the opportunity to approach yet. Thank u.

Emerson (HR): Ok sure.

Me: Hi Emerson (HR). I am unable to update u today. After meeting, she hav left for mkt visit. I will get back to u by tomorrow. Thanks.

Emerson (HR): Ok thank you.

Wah…this Emerson (HR) really kejar me betul-betul, Wednesday & Thursday berturut-turut 2 days in a row …but today hor, is when I was suppose to give an answer back to Emerson (HR)…but this Emerson (HR) didn’t kejar me pula…on leave, I also didn’t revert back…because my original plan was to reply back on next week Monday…hahaha…


Supplier Edmoi: Celtic said ask me talk to u about leaving. But I said if better why bother with merchandising.

Celaka betul this Celtic…told Celtic not to inform anybody…hahaha…this supplier’s answers also surprise me, I bet it also stunned Celtic. I expect the supplier, like everyone else will tell me, please re-consider your decision. Nonetheless, this Celtic also salah give information to the supplier, inform the supplier that I am doing schematic…I told Celtic that I am doing Cat Man, Data & Trade Marketing…see, salah information pass around. But I take note of the supplier’s concern…the supplier is a bit doubtful that I will achieve much success in my new role and also warn me, if everything goes wrong, immediately ask me to go back to buying.

Later on, Celtic told me that Celtic got inform this supplier, and this supplier's reaction was shock and say whether I am crazy or what. But from what the supplier told me, the supplier inform to Celtic, try now…if not now, then when. The supplier also told Celtic – no doubt, you will lose your left hand, so either you find another left hand, grow another left hand or be the left hand yourself…hahaha…this Celtic really can dramatize everything, putar belitkan the keadaan...this Celtic is like becoming another Alice like that...sigh...sign of insecurities...

Tuesday, June 13, 2017

The Goods Shed

J___, Sörenstam wants to buy you over. Pls be prepared


Acne >> haven’t healed yet…

G13 >> the much needed preparation that I wanted to do; new sets of attire, getting myself familiar with the merchandise, I am also not ready yet…

But I THANK YOU GOD, PRAISE TO THE LORD, BLESS YOU GOD – because after the disaster conversation that I have with Celtic…somehow Marcus’s WatsApp message today is really a form of assurance for me…

Wait and See…

In All Circumstances

The difficult circumstances we face can make it hard to say Thanks Lord. We can be thankful to our God who sees in every situation an opportunity for us to trust Him – whether or not we see His purpose.

Father, we honor You with our words, but so often our actions reveal that our hearts don’t trust You. Help us to see You at work in every circumstance, no matter how difficult.

By God’s grace we can be thankful in all things.

Acne – it got worst and worst. All over my face right now. Flaring red, inflame…already visit the doctor…today is my 4th day I am taking the medication…some are drying up but new ones are also popping up…sigh…yes, I also behave as per the above…in the morning, can praise God…but action-wise…failed and remain skeptical. Now no more lah…just have faith…yes, I am very ugly looking right now, also lack the confidence…but I am not going to let it ruin me. My God is mighty to save!