two crystal whiskey jars

 

I am aware that I am surrounded by people who feel that they could do the job better, strong people with powerful characters, but for better or worse, the crown has landed on my head.

This is the story of me...hahaha...

Underestimating Ourselves

This is the story of me...who always want to hide behind the scene...scared and reluctant...never had the confidence...

The young man became his team's captain. The professional sports squad was now led by a mild-mannered kid who barely needed to shave. His first press conference was underwhelming. He kept deferring to the coach and to his teammates and mumbled clichés about just trying to do his job. The team performed poorly that season. And by the end of it the young captain had been traded. He didn't grasp that he'd been entrusted with the authority to lead, or maybe he never believed he could.

Due to his failures, Saul was small in his own eyes, which is funny thing to say about a guy who's described as being tall. He was literally head and shoulders above the rest. And yet that wasn't how he saw himself. In fact, his actions in the chapter show him trying to win the approval of the people. He hadn't fully grasped that God - not people, had chosen him and given him a mission. 

Navigating Life's Rapids

Life has its share of whitewater rapids doesn't it? One moment, it's smooth sailing. Then, in a flash, we're paddling like mad to avoid suddenly swirling whirlpools. Those tense moments make us keenly aware of our need for a skilled guide, a trusted voice to help us navigate turbulent times.

God promises to be that voice - I will instruct you and teach you the way you should go. 

God promises - I will counsel you with my loving eye on you. A reminder that His guidance flows from His love.

The Lord's unfailing love surrounds the one who trust Him. And as we trust Him, we can rest in His promise to guide us through life's rockiest passages. 

Father, thank You for Your promise to be my Guide. Help me to seek You and listen to You as You direct the course of my life. 

Renewed Strength

This is simply mind-blowing. I know that the Bible is relevant even in this modern times, in terms of spiritual food but didn't know that it's so relevant to this extent...

Scripture gives 2 strategies for beating burnout.

In Isaiah 40, the weary soul is renewed when it hopes in the Lord. I needed to rest in God, trusting Him to work, rather than pushing on in my own dwindling strength. And Psalm 103 says God renews us by satisfying our desires with good things. While this includes forgiveness and redemption, provisions of joy and play come from Him too. 

When I reworked my schedule to include more prayer, rest and hobbies like photography, I began to feel healthy again.

Burnout begins with weariness. Let's stop it from going further. We serve others best when our lives include both worship and rest.

Loving God, I want to rise in strength  like the eagle today.  

I trust You to work in my exhausting situation, and receive Your soul-filling gifts with gladness.  

Costly Joy

Joy drives change; not guilt or duty.

Jesus isn't one segment of our lives; His claims on us are total. 

The man In Seat 2D

To do good, to be rich in good deeds and to be generous and willing to share. It's tempting to become arrogant and put our hope in the riches of the world.

Whether we find ourselves with plenty or in want, we all can experience the richness of living generously by being willing to share what we have with others. When we do, we will take hold of the life that is truly life. 

Is God There?

I will wait for the Lord...I will put my trust in Him.

There are times when we might feel as if God isn't with us in our troubles. That's when we depend on what we can see of His works in our lives, in the past and present. They're the visible reminder of an invisible God - a God who is always with us and will answer in His own time and way. 

Prayer Eggs

Though it linger, wait for it, it will certainly come and will not delay.

God replies that Habakkuk is to wait for the Appointed Time.

Dear God, help me to trust You to work while I'm waiting. 

Treasure The Moments

God oversees the course of events and He has made everything beautiful in its time.

Life may be unpredictable and sometimes filled with painful separations, but we can take heart that everything takes place under God's gaze. We can enjoy life and treasure the moments - the good and the bad - for our loving God is with us.  

Thank You, loving Father, for watching over all seasons of my life. 

Help me to trust in You and enjoy the life You've given me. 

Castell Coch

Before, I went off for my year end annual leave...I ask The Mayor; when the new structure will be out...The Mayor admitted that it have been delayed but will be out in January...I think The Mayor's ideal structure cannot be sign off...then, I ask The Mayor, will the Trade Planning Office will still be in existence...The Mayor casually jawab - there are some changes but I will be in the structure...hmm...nampak gaya sure tak jadi...so meaning that all of us have to report to Miss Chew...issh...tak nak...anyway, after Anis case...I also cannot trust The Mayor anymore...I will do what is right...if they want to discharge me...fine, go ahead. I think a change in everything will do me good anyway...provide a breath of fresh air... 

Prosecco Pong

Email from The Mayor on the upcoming 2021 CNY Presentation Deck:

...can you please put into a deck? I'm looking for Miss Chew for MY and an another Singapore Counterpart for SG with J___ helping for both...

...So, it's very obvious isn't it...Miss Chew belong to Malaysia, will head all operations in Malaysia, so where do I fit in...

Brinsworth House in Twickenham

I WatsApp Marcus, wanted to inform Marcus that Anis is leaving...but rupa-rupanya, Marcus have already been informed; by Mr. Horton's Secretary...ehh...how come geh...how come the both of them had that conversation opportunity? Hmm...  

Simply Ask

In our lives, sometimes we struggle with a problem because we won't ask God - will You help? Should I go? Will You lead? He doesn't require complicated questions from us to help. Before they call, I will answer. God promised His people. So today, simply ask Him.

Dear Heavenly Father, when life feels complicated and difficult, thank You for Your promise to hear even my simple prayers.  

Beat Again

March On, My Soul.

Be Strong - because the Lord had Promised Victory.

Master Physician, thank You for being with me in every trial and battle. Because of Your promised presence, I will direct my soul to act bravely. 

Lord Lieutenant of Greater London

THANK YOU GOD, PRAISE TO THE LORD, BLESS YOU GOD!

Some needed motivation and encouragement.

WatsApp Conversation with SW:

Your presentation is good 👍

Clear and structure

But I see it’s good portfolio for you lar

Good exposure

 

Diamond Frame Earrings

 

Sigh...I don't know who will take over Anis job...dah lah, I also cannot cope with my own daily work.

Miss Chew did threw in a name, but with Miss Chew...she can always change her mind, it's not written in black & white anyway.

Nonetheless, I should have faith because God have given a name, a thought into Miss Chew's mind, so praying that it will sticks. God already gave me 2 confirmation; the first one was via WatsApp, the second is when Miss Chew; ask why Anis didn't invite the person in for the Teams meeting...even Anis also get the same impression as I am...

Pantoland

Anis decided not to continue her contract when it ends, end of this month. Anis is also frustrated when Miss Chew keep on interfering with the work.

What is interesting is this - The Mayor told me that Anis will be confirm...but Miss Chew told me that The Mayor have no intention to confirm Anis in the first place. So, who is telling the truth now? And what is more interesting is this...Miss Chew have the budget to hire...apparently The Mayor have given Miss Chew a list of job roles that the department requires...sigh...Miss Chew will take this opportunity to take me out for sure...   

Royal Berkshire Hospital

I am aware that I am surrounded by people who feel that they could do a better job, strong people with powerful characters, but for better or for worse, the crown has landed on my head - The Crown.

I think The Mayor expect me to lead from the front, not shying away from behind the scene...I just do not have the motivation nor the courage. Thus, I thank God that there is Christopher..I guess I should play the role instead of Christopher doing it...aligning the end to end of the entire Trade Plan process across the 3 different countries; Malaysia, Singapore & Indonesia. Because I didn't step into the role well or embrace it immediately...thus Christopher was handed the tasks, which I am ok with it...I need to learn, I can't fill up those big shoes...I need a guide...right now, is how do I position myself that I can be of assistance...hahaha...  

London Palladium

There was this Marketing Townhall with some international agencies in attendance, the participants are from Hong Kong, Malaysia, Singapore, Indonesia & Cambodia...Miss Chew ask me whether I got attend or not...I said tak ada...but knowing Miss Chew, probably want to make me jealous or curious because I know that Miss Chew have a habit of checking through the participant's list...

Then, the Singapore Counterpart, as per her claim lah...accidentally ter-dial me into the group...so that is how I found out...again, entahlah, is it doing on purpose again...because I found out; Furball, Miss Chew and 2 Singapore Counterpart are in attendance, and I didn't get any invite from The Mayor...no doubt that this is an agency's townhall.

My point is this - I am not invited by The Mayor. I know that I didn't deliver what he ask me to do...writing minutes...running some reports...I just feel so sien...I am not surprise that I have denied myself that golden opportunity, I didn't steward it well...yes, it's my fault, maybe I didn't grasp that I can lead, Lord Alfonso hard sell me too much & create this unrealistic overall expectations.