Button Down

I don’t know why I was so upset with Seth. That attitude and behavior was not the first, and surely will not be the last. I thought I just go NUMB…but every time it crops up, the pain is getting more unbearable. Don’t blame me if I were to put up a defensive wall between the both of us. You started it.
Things are not rosy at the moment. Probably in a week’s time, we will be able to know who our new sponsors are, something that I’m not looking forward to. Yet being in the middle of this transaction, the experience of watching things change have become so enriching.

I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertone, just caught in the undertone

I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired, so much more aware
I’ve becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can’t you see that you’re smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Caught in the undertone, just caught in the undertone
Every step I take is another mistake to you

Caught in the undertone, just caught in the undertone
And every second I waste is more that I can take

I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired, so much more aware
I’ve becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

And I know
I may end up falling too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there
I’ve become so tired, so much more aware
I’ve becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I’ve become so numb, I can’t feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be

-Numb: Linkin Park-

P/S: I’m going up to Ipoh after this with Tommy & Amadeo for Nikolai’s party tonight :)