I had seafood lunch yesterday at Dataran Prima – recommendation from Juan with Tommy & Nikolai. We had a marvelous session with the crabs and the prawns :)
Then the 4 of us hang out at SS2 Coffee Bean for our second session. It was nice to have an exquisite late afternoon coffee – drowning in the sounds of coffee machines, clinking tea cups and the gentle mummer of people.
It’s Explanation Week – I know that they are not going to let me off the hook that easily. They want me to explain…everything…the whole details. And I gave them – partially :) Honesty is not the best policy in such a situation. Especially with these mature adults. They cannot cope with truth. They can’t manage the facts. They cannot admit that they are wrong…mistakes can and do happen.
The First Triangle – in my first meeting with my would-be manager, I have been informed that I will get a promotion but NO upgrade. I have asked but there were no given answers. I waited. A week has passed. I know that people who are at Seth & Celtic’s position are secure. Based on inside information, only people who are at my level will be compromised. So in order to minimize my risk further, the situation has forced me to look for outside alternatives. And when I was looking for alternatives, they revert back and decide to upgrade me a little. It was very insignificant. I firmly say no :)
The Second Triangle – a better upgrade than the first triangle but the job scope was not attractive. Again, I say no :)
The Third Triangle – which I accepted. I’m taking the risk to join Haakon. I will still continue to enhance and add value to my current work. And I have identified 3 new areas that I hope that I will be able to learn much from Haakon. At least, the next time I leave, I have 4 options to move around instead of being stuck in 1. I can be a generalist and a specialist at the same time :)
Seth & Celtic are please to see me go – less competition for them :)
But there were some nasty people around. These people knew of my first & second triangle and start to talk behind my back, sharing with other nosy people and words was spread around very quickly – they say that I was demanding, my asking price was unreasonable, that I don’t worth that much, my refusal to accept the first or the second triangle indicate my cockiness, that I blew away good chances, that I didn’t know how to secure good opportunities, that I didn’t know how to be grateful, that I was greedy, that I throw my career away…very very hurtful :( – if you all only knew.
If The British didn’t buy over M13 last year, I will be leaving end of this year anyway. I need to move out from my comfort zone. It’s time for me to close one chapter and open another chapter. And if I was working like what Eloise is doing – than yes, I admit that what I’m currently receiving is a lot and can be consider as the highest paid at that level. But I gave MORE than that. At the beginning stage I didn’t mind because I thought I was a freshie and ragging like this is necessary. Then it reaches a point where it just didn’t add up. The 'MORE' that has become immeasurable. I just want something back to justify my effort and hard work. There was only 1 increment after I graduated from the Management Trainee program and then there was no increment after my 6 months probation, there is no OT and the bonus scheme was just discriminating, it took care of the people at the top but not at the bottom. All this time it was all about giving but no receiving. Is it too much to ask? To reward your employees for their effort and extra incentives to retain their talents?
At the end of the day, I’m just looking for a package that justifies my previous effort and extra incentives to drive me through. I am going to work my ass off and prove to them that I’m worth that value.
Flatter Me, And I May Not Believe You. Critisize Me, And I May Not Like You. Ignore Me, And I May Not Forgive You. Encourage Me, And I Will Not Forget You. - William A. Ward
Then the 4 of us hang out at SS2 Coffee Bean for our second session. It was nice to have an exquisite late afternoon coffee – drowning in the sounds of coffee machines, clinking tea cups and the gentle mummer of people.
It’s Explanation Week – I know that they are not going to let me off the hook that easily. They want me to explain…everything…the whole details. And I gave them – partially :) Honesty is not the best policy in such a situation. Especially with these mature adults. They cannot cope with truth. They can’t manage the facts. They cannot admit that they are wrong…mistakes can and do happen.
The First Triangle – in my first meeting with my would-be manager, I have been informed that I will get a promotion but NO upgrade. I have asked but there were no given answers. I waited. A week has passed. I know that people who are at Seth & Celtic’s position are secure. Based on inside information, only people who are at my level will be compromised. So in order to minimize my risk further, the situation has forced me to look for outside alternatives. And when I was looking for alternatives, they revert back and decide to upgrade me a little. It was very insignificant. I firmly say no :)
The Second Triangle – a better upgrade than the first triangle but the job scope was not attractive. Again, I say no :)
The Third Triangle – which I accepted. I’m taking the risk to join Haakon. I will still continue to enhance and add value to my current work. And I have identified 3 new areas that I hope that I will be able to learn much from Haakon. At least, the next time I leave, I have 4 options to move around instead of being stuck in 1. I can be a generalist and a specialist at the same time :)
Seth & Celtic are please to see me go – less competition for them :)
But there were some nasty people around. These people knew of my first & second triangle and start to talk behind my back, sharing with other nosy people and words was spread around very quickly – they say that I was demanding, my asking price was unreasonable, that I don’t worth that much, my refusal to accept the first or the second triangle indicate my cockiness, that I blew away good chances, that I didn’t know how to secure good opportunities, that I didn’t know how to be grateful, that I was greedy, that I throw my career away…very very hurtful :( – if you all only knew.
If The British didn’t buy over M13 last year, I will be leaving end of this year anyway. I need to move out from my comfort zone. It’s time for me to close one chapter and open another chapter. And if I was working like what Eloise is doing – than yes, I admit that what I’m currently receiving is a lot and can be consider as the highest paid at that level. But I gave MORE than that. At the beginning stage I didn’t mind because I thought I was a freshie and ragging like this is necessary. Then it reaches a point where it just didn’t add up. The 'MORE' that has become immeasurable. I just want something back to justify my effort and hard work. There was only 1 increment after I graduated from the Management Trainee program and then there was no increment after my 6 months probation, there is no OT and the bonus scheme was just discriminating, it took care of the people at the top but not at the bottom. All this time it was all about giving but no receiving. Is it too much to ask? To reward your employees for their effort and extra incentives to retain their talents?
At the end of the day, I’m just looking for a package that justifies my previous effort and extra incentives to drive me through. I am going to work my ass off and prove to them that I’m worth that value.
Flatter Me, And I May Not Believe You. Critisize Me, And I May Not Like You. Ignore Me, And I May Not Forgive You. Encourage Me, And I Will Not Forget You. - William A. Ward
1 comment:
hey yingze,...
it happen in most company...
glad that you finally got a package that you're ok with...
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