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Grey’s Anatomy Season 4! :)
The interns have become residents at last except for George O’Malley…poor George will have to start fresh again after failing his exams…but their life remains as messy as ever. And entertaining to watch.

Addison took off for California and the challenges of a ‘Private Practice’.

Burke left Christina (and Seattle) when he realize that their marriage wasn’t meant to be. I love Christina character – even though at times it was a very typical Asian character. She looked into every detail, she fixed every problem, she took care of everything, she was so initiative, organized, enthusiastic, reliable and creative! She was incredible! Plus very ambitious to a certain extent where she will do anything to get what she wants; including hurting her friends and she doesn’t give a damn about it. You won’t be able to forgive such a woman. Christina is a great doc but only lacks one thing – compassion. This is where she needs to learn from Izzie. No doubt being a surgeon is about excellent technical hand skills but the personal human touch plays a role of its own as well.

Then there is the never-ending-story-on-and-off relationship between Meredith and Derek. I love Yang, I Love Bailey, heck; I even love Addison Montgomery-Shepherd. I love the rest of the doctor squad (hot, young, smart, sexy despite how ridiculous it is that the doctors all sleep with each other) but oh my gosh…how on earth did Meredith Grey become the leading lady is freaking beyond me. The fragile, squeaky-voice, hesitant character. I think Meredith should have hook-up with Finn (the vet)...with McDreamy, I think it’s all about the sex and not the relationship. She may be addicted to it. The arrival of Meredith’s half-sister Lexie as the new intern – more tense situations are coming in between the siblings. Probably fighting over Derek.

George broke up with his wife Callie and has an affair with his best friend Izzie. Izzie is in her prime now…after the disastrous relationship with Alex, Danny Duquette (a patient who’s awaiting a heart transplant) – I think Izzie’s love with George is permanent. And it was touching to see Callie to bow out and let them go. When things are not meant to be, you have to let it go.

Dr. Miranda Bailey – The Nazi for her abrasive treatment of the interns :)
The rules of residency become the rules of life:
Rule #1: Always keep score.
Rule #2: Do whatever you can to outsmart the other guy.
Rule #3: Don’t make friends with the enemy.

* I don’t know why we put things off. But if I have to guess, I’d say it has a lot to do with fear. Fear of failure, fear of pain, fear of rejection. Sometimes the fear is just of making a decision, any decision, because what if you’re wrong?

* See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. Once in a while people may even take your breath away. That’s what you have to believe.

a chaotic remembrance

getting high; running wild among all the stars above :)

Winter Run

Private Practice – ok, so it’s not as hot, sexy, steamy and scandalous compare to their counterparts in Grey’s Anatomy but I really enjoyed this dramedy :) It’s definitely lighter and more buoyant. Less complicated. More maturity.

I’ve always like Kate Walsh’s character – the renowned surgeon Dr. Addison Montgomery-Shepherd. I was rooting for her to get back her husband; Derek. Addison is not a bitch; she is trying to save her marriage and after all she is human, human makes mistakes. She really loves Derek. Her affairs with Dr. Mark ‘McSteamy’ Sloan was just pure lust. Addison is one smart woman. Passionate, intelligent, brave, stylish, driven - exactly the kind of person that makes medicine exciting! She is way better than Meredith Grey who is clueless and indecisive. Grey needs adult guidance in relationship. It’s sad that Addison has to leave Seattle Grace Hospital but I’m very sure this character will grow stronger in Oceanside Wellness Center in Santa Monica. Addison is a changed person for the better, tone down a little…even though I do missed the sarcastic side of her.
And i'm looking forward to her relationship with Dr. Pete Wilder; alternative medicine specialist played by Tim Daly. Addison is going to heal Pete from his emotional devastation brought about by his wife’s tragic demise 8 years earlier and Pete will provide stability (and hopefully babies) in Addison’s life :)
And not to be forgotten Dell (Chris Lowell) – the eye-candy male receptionist that have the killer washboard abs whose ultimate ambition is to be a mid-wife!
(Heart & Soul) :)

# I have made my fair share of mistakes and wrong decisions. Mistakes can happen to everyone, but is important to get over it and keep working harder and harder. I’m a big girl and have big character & its down to me to deal with it.

Test Tube

Baby sis…no its Dr. Sis who…my sister thinks that I may have…minor OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder)…in the form of…I tend to wash my hands very often…more that the average ordinary people. I don’t wash my hands until they turn red and coarse…I just wash them…frequently…because…I think there is bacteria on them…and when I have anxiety or depression in between…I tend to develop a common cold because…apparently when I suppress my emotions…the pile-up emotions will trigger my body to…have physical illness…well, that’s what baby sis’s psychology lecturer said in her class today.

Well, as long as this disorder is not critical where I need medical attention…I’m fine with it. But it makes me realize, that I need to overcome them…take care of my emotional health better. I was having a really hard time with everyone’s (including myself) behavior, defiance, moods, and bad attitudes. It was going on for weeks and I was close to insanity at one point. I was stuck in a rut that was quickly spiraling downwards…and everything has settled down now. And yes, it was all just a normal part of growing up. It was a phase.

* My thoughts are swirling with reminders and to-dos. Time is getting tighter :(

I never fished. I would always sit and watch.

My new toy has arrived – BKA 6503 :)
I’m so used to driving in the old faithful…I find it awkward in driving around with the new toy…but I’m going to overcome, re-learn and enjoy the whole process.

O’Briens – dinner with Thor, May Leng, Miss Foong, Olave and Celtic.
Unfortunately Seth and Guillermo couldn’t join us and we bump into Boss on the way there.
We had a yummy dinner with lots of gourmet coffee, Irish sandwiches, juices, chips, noises, giggles, squeals and laughter. It was a fantastic evening out with friends! The girly and motherly bonding.

on the road

I bumped into Nisti Jihan the other day - we were not classmates but we were in the same primary and secondary school & we had shared the same mutual friends.
We chatted…and it brings back so many memories. I left SMKSSAAS back in 1999 with some awesome memories, not-so-kick-ass report cards, cherished friendships and embarrassing teenage crushes :) I had heaps of friends - but they were all from different groups. So I just drifted from group to group. The pot-smoking arty group, the brainy library group, the elite popular trendy group, the cool intelligent and the slightly eccentric group. The good old days…I was happy, mellow, exhausted, satisfied. It’s such an opulent luxury.

But look at me now…the life’s obstacles that I went through for the last 3 years, I’m worn out – well, I treat them like the awesome battle scars of a real woman :)

take time to realize

Calmer and saner in real life is admirable, but I bet that would make for a duller living experience for me :)

Nothing Last Forever

Celtic drops da’bomb.
I drop da’bomb :)
HouseHold starts together, ends together.
Yes, finally…we are parting ways…however; we will meet again in The French camp…but in different division.
No doubt that Celtic will take the biggest, most attractive & highly anticipated category in the regime…while I’ve been assigned to the least significant of territories, I’m just glad that this time around I can step out on my own.
[If you’re not big enough to lose, you’re not big enough to win – Walter Reuther]

(Madonna: Take A Bow)

Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Lights are low, the curtains down
There's no one here
[There's no one here, there's no one in the crowd]
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around [no one around]
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
[One lonely star you don't know who you are]

I've always been in love with you [always with you]
I guess you've always known it's true [you know it's true]
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye
Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye
Make them laugh, it comes so easy
When you get to the part
Where you're breaking my heart [breaking my heart]
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
[Just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown]
Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played [role that you played]
No more masquerade, you're one lonely star
[One lonely star and you don't know who you are]

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye
All the world is a stage [world is a stage]
And everyone has their part [has their part]
But how was I to know which way the story'd go
How was I to know you'd break
[You'd break, you'd break, you'd break]
You'd break my heart
I've always been in love with you
[I've always been in love with you]
Guess you've always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye
Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye
Say good-bye

a million love songs

I forgot to blog this – Troy came down to KL last weekend! :) We had an incredible time! We had so much fun!

We shopped at 1 Utama the whole day…bought some household & DIY essentials for Troy’s house, had yummy Japanese food for lunch & dinner, passing the glittery windows of the many boutiques, watching all the people in their nice clothes, bought chocolates, we walked, we chatted and we laughed noisily :)

Later in the night; we curl ourselves on the big comfy couch, sipping hot tea and talked endlessly until 2am before going to bed. We talked about certain things, certain issues, what's in our heads, what's in our hearts, what's stopping us, what's moving us, our insecurities and etc.
I hope the advice that I have given to Troy is inspiring, to a certain extend motivates Troy to come out from the comfort zone. The Troy I knows is uninhibited and unrestrained but we must realized that people can and will change. I’m sure Troy is a little bit upset with me because Troy have been rudely told off by me…but sometimes the only way we can admit the truth is when the truth is spoken out loud where we can hear it loud and clear :) I’m very sure Troy have done the very best to implement change, perhaps it was just not enough or not at the right time. But I’m very sure that at the end of the day, Troy will do the right thing which is the best for everyone.

Life is simple and easy; not complicated. Things are messy because we make it so :)

everyday is a blessing

I am in a very reflective mood today. Lots to think about :)

Time has passed - I truthfully think and accept the fact that Celtic is a better leader. I will never be like Celtic. But in my own role…I believe I have my own appeal :) I really feel like I was really able to be very free and raw and true. But the most important thing I learned was to accept how little I know or need to know, to give up some of the strong negative feelings and just trust. Trust my gut. I’m not a particularly intuitive person…I’m a list-maker :)

The French – I have always said that my life is a fluke. The rewards that I received are not through hard work but by chances. I don’t know. I just tend to see my life that way. GOD; I thank you for everything. In my darkest hours, you have walked with me and help me to pull through. I’m humbled. I fear arrogance on my part. It is easy to be arrogant. Human beings are so flawed. We are so prone to being arrogant.
I will walk down a new road in August – I will put myself in an unusual environment or an environment that I’m not used to…I’m going to learn something new, more about myself, how to cope, learn to compromise and be comfortable with the unknown.

Follow your heart. Never compare yourself to anyone else. Never put yourself down. Thank yourself for getting you where you are and never give up – Salma Hayek.

field of miracles

Spain WON! :)