Saturday, September 06, 2008

about a girl

The big, big, big boss of The English called me…whether I’m interested in exploring my career opportunities with them. I don’t see a need and I can’t find a reason why I should leave my current space. Besides, I will end my journey here. I want to earn the money, save them and do what I want to do later on. I want more time to pursue my other interests and socialised like there is no tomorrow :) I’d like to read more books, do some photography, listen to more music, watch more plays/movies, see more live bands, shopping, visiting art galleries & attending parties. I wouldn’t have been able to if I had a gigantic workload and feeling tired all the time. I need to prioritize.

Work schedule seems heavier by the day where I have to rush, implement & execute all of the ideas, the projects and strategic changes as fast as I could...then, I’ll have something to show to Rufus, and to myself. So much to think about and plan. Accept the cards that I’m dealt with. This is one of the rare moments where I know what I’m doing but have no control over the time that is running away so fast. I’m a wee bit ticked off with myself for it, but at the same time I’m happy. I’d have to work on getting my work experiences up to par with the others.
At times, I’m beginning to doubt myself - am I the right person for this job? Or I am where I am today is by sheer luck? I obviously lack the skills and everything else involved. I don’t have what it takes. They know it. Maybe I’m more suited towards administrative-type-routine role, where I aimlessly doing data-entry and file things whenever people want me to; a menial type of job. That should be what I’m looking for - instead of this. I’ll bring the entire house down the longer I stay. But with a challenging task ahead, I’m willing to learn and work :)

Success is getting what you want. Happiness is wanting what you get.

1 comment:

fallen_again said...

hey yingze,

i like your last words.. could save me a lot of headache a few weeks ago hehehe...