the end & the begining

Merry Christmas y'all

May your coming year be filled with magic & dreams and good madness too. I hope you read some fine books and kiss someone who thinks you are wonderful and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing and most importantly live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere in the next year, you surprise yourself :)

Green Wave

Bicycle Fair (my final column press ad & the 18th for the year) - RM21K.

Nego 2010 - I need to balance the creative direction with commercial appeal. I need to be more mindful of the budgets and the financial quantity & sales forecasts. Being more strategic with returns on investments of money & time. Assured & secured of the front margin and the back margin. At the end of the day, it's all about making money. We're a business after all. And I know I will have a very hard time bargaining with my suppliers. It's going to be an uphill battle - a fight between David & Goliath. Sometimes, Iron Butterfly & Rufus are being very unfair to me as well, with less purchase & mailer participation - yet I have to deliver higher fees than this year. So sucky :(

I will be going on leave next week Wednesday & Thursday for Christmas...leaving the office in the most critical times...it's end of the year - I have closing & landing to do...but I have to let go...I have a life...I need to spend quality time with my family. I need to focus more on what's tangible than the intangible and not concrete ideals that I want to acheive. Sometimes, I forget as I let myself get caught up in the drama of work and the company.

I feel like next year is THE year - the year for me to be the best that I can be. I'm turning 28 and I haven't acheived half the things that I've wanted to do in my life yet. And the truth is, it's possible to do whatever I want to do, it just takes a lot of hard work, focus, discipline and determination. Hopefully, next year will be the year where all my dreams will come true. Next year, I've set myself up to learn more, to gain more wisdom and to improve in all areas that I've always lagged in.

The Color Purple

Cannot...I must excercise more. Focus, determination & discipline. I am very flabby everywhere; all over the place. I've gotten way out of shape and have probably neglected my health & fitness more than I should as a girl...no; as a woman in her late 20's! This is when I should be looking my best no? *sigh* I thought to myself...if this is my best, than...I better be fixing myself up a little bit while I still can!

I often choose to debate in my head that my working hours & my hectic merchandising job gives me all the excercise that I need; but it isn't long before that I have to admit to myself that it's a different form of activity altogether. It's taken me a while and many low times to bring me back to realization that priorities - just like life; is ever changing...and I suppose I didn't get the memo to have mine updated in the past few years *tsk tsk* Maybe there was a reminder - but i was being ignorant and in denial :)

I hadn't actually make a physical list of all the things which I should be re-adjusting (and they've naturally fallen into place after a fair number of harsh lessons that I had learnt along the way) - right now; it really should be about ME, adventure and a good understanding of strong basics in life. That would mean - good physical health (mentally, emotionally & spiritually as well), happy relationships with family + friends, opportunities and lots of new & exciting explorations.

I had misunderstood all of that for W.O.R.K. My job has become my life. Well, work and career...are two words which are often interwined and incorrectly assumed. I've learnt that in order to acheive your dream career - work is inevitable, but by no means does that equate to: by merely doing the work, a dream career will lay itself on my doorstep. I often have so much to do; it's easy to forget to dream. I dream a lot. I used to. It fed my passion.

never a failure, always a lesson

Atticus has completed the Sports Department revamp. I can't help but to be so proud of myself :) The implantations were awful, the family assortments does not gel in, there is no complete sku range...but I know that I cannot (and never ever) underestimate Atticus. Probably this outcome is just to keep the fast-moving & profitable lines. Which I agree that this is the correct thing to do. I admire Atticus's intelligence and courage. Atticus is back on track again! Atticus is the brain behind the very sucessful Stationary Department who ranks number 1 for 2 - 3 years in a row in terms of sales, voulme and profit; beating big-value departments like Appliance, Furniture & Household. Therefore, Atticus is certainly very capable in repeating the same feat again and will swat me over very easily next year. The pressure is on me now! :)

2010 will still remain an Anticipation, Association & Representation Strategies plus a Fun & Lively Elements throw in. Hypermakets Assortments that covers a certain extent of breadth & depth (plus a little bit of upgrading & the primary role of colors) while maintaining a Hypermarket Competitive Pricing Strategy with a Sports Specialist Shop Implantation & Planograming in mind. Different categories will have different customer segmentation and concept. I want the customers and consumers to have this impression imprinted in their mind - if they need Sports, Bicycles, Nautism, Camping, Fitness - they come to us. They don't go elsewhere. That is why I will continue to emphasize a lot on Press Ad & Mailer activities with a point of Differentiation to prompt the customers, to create the brand exposure, to sell the lifestyle, to present the whole concept range, the product and myself :) I want The English to recognize my humble master pieces and to take notice that I am still around. In case, I lost my job with The French, hopefully The English will offer me a job :) This year, I have created many first & milestones in the industry, changing the way people perceive the categories and consumer education - laying down the foundations in moving things forward, for better things to come. I commit and put my plans in GOD's mighty hands. So hopefully that GOD is with me all the way. I'm going to be stumbling all the way (for sure); baby steps...it's just the begining.

"When you look back and wonder...did I do enough, but in fact, so long as you have taken the business a little further and left it better then when you first arrive; if you can be sure that you have started a few things that will have legs into the future, that's as much as you can expect" - Irene Dorner, HSBC Bank Malaysia Bhd Deputy Chairman & CEO.

Iron Butterfly said this to me on Tuesday (after the Coleman Regional Meeting) - "Good job, J____" - priceless :)

EOVL

Torres >> hmm, I don't know. It seems like a complex thing. Liking someone is complex enough already. What it boils down to is that I keep on thinking that the other person deserves someone better than me :(

Grey's Anatomy. Ally McBeal. Neurotic, attractive, professional woman having problems staying in a proper relationships. I'm like them...
Relationships should be easy, but these stupid chick flicks are brainwashing the lot of us. Long ago, life was meant to be live it, meet a guy, then marry him and bears him kids & take care of them. Now with the invasion of Sex In The City & other powerful women-theme-shows-culture; we're doomed to considering every single nostril hair that he sheds before we can even consider saying yes to a date in the first place. And then, even in the process of courtship, we'll spend over four years carefully checking every other suspicions that we have about the possible Mr. Right before gleefully tossing him to the big rubbish dump of Mr. Wrongs that I used to date.
Choosy!

from glory to glory

Trouble he will find you no matter where you go, oh oh
No matter if you're fast, no matter if you're slow, oh oh
The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn, oh oh
You're fine for a while but you start to lose control

He's there in the dark, he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings, he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe, oh oh
And no matter what I feed him he always seems to grow, oh oh
He sees what I see and he knows what I know, oh oh
So don't forget as you ease on down the road

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win, but I'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend, yeah trouble is a friend of mine, oh oh

Oh how I hate the way he makes me feel
And how I try to make hime leave, I try
Oh Oh I try.

Work Tales:
Take A Step Outside With Coleman = RM21K
School Holiday Fair = RM79K
Oh dear...I'm slipping away. It's like I've lost it completely...averagely, I'm contributing 35% - 40% but now it's like 19% - 25%! It's alarming. Maybe it's the raining season, or Christmas or Back To School...I don't know anymore. This job has created this new emotional level of stress/sorrows which I've been so lucky to have never come across in the past :) It makes you feel like that you are not contributing enough, not doing enough. Iron Butterfly has sarcastically commented: "it's a good effort, but the sales are not justified, instead you went and make additional purchases which cause high stock days". I would love to say: "@#$% !^&...at least there is additional sales; no matter how minimal it is because the figures could have been even much more worst and the advertising will give my department (and indirectly myself) the extra exposure and branding purposes.

But fret not! Yingze knows how to pick up herself again. No matter what these people say or do, no matter how they put me down, no matter how bad the results are...I am very grateful that GOD is with me all these while and have blessed me very richly in every way possible. I will be focus. I've got my favorite music plug in to my ears, I'm running; err...running to no where but my mind is running to bigger things, to bigger dreams and to the many places my passion for life brings me :)

reconnecting with old friends

M13 Alumni Gathering, Melting Pot Cafe, Concord Hotel Shah Alam - you guys rock! :)

Even though, it was not a large crowd but the numbers is just good enough for a starter. Damian, Trix, Torres, Amadeo, Chihiro, Pietro, Alex, Charis, Mel Jag, Miss Klein and many more was in da'house. We talked, giggled, teased, ate, talked some more, laughed, joked, took loads of photos, gossiped, ranted, raved, drove each other a bit insane, and yes...talked even more :) Thanks to Trix & Mel Jag (the Organizers) and also the Connectors. Connectors are people who don't only know a lot of people - they love introducing who they know to each other, one way or another. They take joy in the whole process of making a difference by connecting people. That's why if you have a connector in your life, you will defnitely find yourself blessed with all sorts of things. If you don't have a connector just yet, go and find one - you'll see how great it is to have one (or more) in your life. And, if you're a connector yourself - good on 'ya. You're a rare breed who can bring a lot of interesting things into the lives of people you come across.

Memory is a funny thing. I have mental snapshots of people, faces, rooms, corridors, laughter, voices, documents and endless beautiful M13 moments & magic; all frozen and hazy whilst embedded in 2 years of grey matter; and all about to be transformed by the reality of time.

Although this whole thing is very exciting, I feel as though a part of me - they're still my friends but I can't help but feel that we've grown apart in some ways and have got settled into our own lives. I've said many times that a good relationship is like a duck. Everything may look smooth but underneath it all, you've got to paddle like hell :) This should come as no surprise to anyone who has ever been in a serious long-term relationship. As everyone knows, good relationships takes work. So, I've been pondering about what makes people click as friends...what makes friendship last...how do friendships work...can men & women be really "just friends"...how do you develop friendships...what makes a friend a real friend...well, you get the picture.

So, my M13 reunion didn't change my life. It didn't shake the foundation of my youth. And I don't really feel like a transformed person because of it.

So yes, my friends; thanks again for a gorgeous, memorable weekend. I'm already looking forward to the next get-together :)

Go Shopping

Today, I went down to Hartamas - for another Bazaar Fashion Flea Market experience...again! :) Eep! Oh no! It was just to accompany my Baby Sis to this small event. I didn't buy anything at all as I have spent all of my money on my Bandung trip.

Bandung is the capital of West Java province in Indonesia; and the country's fourth largest city and the second largest metropolitan area. Basically, Bandung is a shopping & spa tourist destination. The city lies on a river basin and is surrounded by volcanic mountains.

The Bandung shopping experience is pretty much one long stretch of shops after shops after shops :) Popular places are the Rumah Mode, Paris Van Java, Jalan Dago, Jalan Riau and Cihampelas Street. They sells mainly women's fashions, accessories, shoes, bags, jewellery, maternity wear, kids wear, lingerie, sleepwear, shoes and men's clothes. Best things about them: is their massive range of clothes and accessories, they stock up lots of familiar brands, they have lots of sales items, they have a wide range of styles and their styles covers different ages from 18 - 45. These products are tagged as sisa export (rejected or over-produced export quality items) and these shops are called factory outlets.

We also visited the distinguised truncated flat-peak shape of the Tangkuban Perahu Volcano (Tangkuban Perahu literally means up-turned boat). The sight is just breath-taking. I loved it! I truly enjoyed my holidays...eventhough I came back with diahrrea :( Which I later spread the virus to my Mom & Baby Sis. Thank GOD, we have since recovered.

I'm Happy :)

face/off

It's really difficult to get back into the momentum of work after 9 days away from it all. I had approximately 100 odd emails waiting for me today. Plus, I have discovered that the appraisal season is coming soon and eveyone is rushing to be in Iron Butterfly's good books :) There are certain people who have been working extremly hard to get ahead of the game - backstabbing, bullying, taking advantage of the weak ones...sigh :( What a pathetic sight. Some people can stood so low. I know where I stand and where I rank :) Not up there with the Greats.

Even with all the staring into space, I've managed to do some work (the important stuff) thanks to the wonders of Chocolate Malt; I salute you :)

Concord Fair - RM28k
Intex Fair - RM42k
Children's Fair - RM52k
Rain, rain - please go away - it's really affecting my department sales very badly :(

through my window

There's nothing I fear more than Death right now. I'm more Death-Fearing than GOD-Fearing. Everyone gets old. That's how life works. You're born, you grow into a kid, then an adult, then your body gets older and then one day your body will stop working. Lots of people are scared when they have to die. They are also very sad and upset when others have to die. Those feelings are normal...which I'm not ready for it yet. I'm still young. They are still young. The days are still young. I seek for GOD's healing, blessings and grace upon us.

Runway Couture

American Tourister Collection, By Samsonite; The Gardens Ballroom Level 5, The Gardens Hotel & Residences, Mid Valley City.
I didn't know that a new luggage collection product launching event can be so sexy, posh & elegant. It definitely captures the very essence of the Samsonite's re-branding culture.
It was a preview and a luncheon session, everyone stroll through the luxuriously plush carpets under the flashing spot lights, feted on a 5-Star-rating dining buffet, the products were on display very minimally on the limited podiums because the main display was being done by the attractive models themselves. They came out on stage; accessorize themselves with the many types of bags & luggages (of different styles, functions & colors) from the new collections and began to walk from one table to the next table for the guest to see & inspect the goods up close and personal. Not only that, the guest get to see how to carry the gear with style; just like the professionals. Impressive!

Juan was also in the audience (what a nice surprise!) - manage to chat up with Juan for only 7 minutes. Quick updates on life & work :)
Samsonite has been extremly generous as well - every guest who attended the event was given a free 24" Expandable Luggage from the new collection :) Thank you to Rufus for bringing me along. The luggage's texture is so superbly crafted. It's simply gorgeous, dark, edgy and confident :)

pinky & perky

I just came back from my Bandung, Indonesia holiday. I had a brilliant week. I was completely at ease, not stressed at all :) I was beaming with a relaxed glow. I could feel all of my bones in my body soften and my heart rate plod along at what I like to call, Ice Cream Speed.
I definitely want to travel more. Experience more places and all that is out there that the world has to offer. I don't want to get so comfortable in my day job that I forget how to experience life :)

new invincibles

The days have been getting more and more hectic as I venture in deeper into my business plans...have to start planning and strategizing the road map, the categories direction, the portfolio clusterization and the suppliers negotiation for 2010. Truth to be told; I'm almost afraid to look at what's coming straight at me right now, but if my eye's are shut, they're going to hit me right in the face. Haha! Consequences and responsibilities that comes hand in hand with business growth which shows no mercy. Especially to unsuspecting little lamb-first timers like me. I'm going to be okay...I know it :) Here, life is a journey, not a competition.

This department is not easy to handle, even Atticus took the most drastic decision to eliminate the Big Fitness & Adult Bicycles lines. There are just too many problems & issues ranging from display, decote, breakage, high stock days, huge stock value, customers demand, spare parts availability, repair, services & maintenance etc. Headache! Arrgh! :)

Only another 2 more months left...but this November & December are the most critical months for D33. I have been motivating, pushing my people to do as much sales as possible. My bonuses are all gone because I failed all of the KPI :) but I do want them to get their well-deserve rewards. I know that their confidence have been bruised, dented and even dissappointed. Mine too. No matter how much we do, the effort does not produce the desire results. I am doing as much as I can. I don't even know what else to do anymore. I am being rational and logical here - customers will buy A4 copier papers more or fitness bike more? Which will generate more sales - RM9.90 plastic storage box or RM99.90 12" Children BMX Bike? Fast moving items flying off the shelves - Papermate blue pen or sleeping bag? Bazaar Seasonal Alley Planning - everyone overlook the School Holiday Event this year...instead the plan was for Christmas Toys, Back To School and 2010 Chinese New Year. I even have to fight for floor space! Iron Butterfly can even suggest that I should give way! Yeah, I'm not Iron Butterfly's pet like Celtic, Matte-Marit, Stewart and Trix are :)
I'm slowly learning on how to deal with difficult situations and squirm away from crummy people who are being disturbingly unkind. Iron Butterfly thinks that I'm not doing anything at all, all day; I just sit on my ass and only do paper work stuffs. I'm not aggresive enough, I'm not demanding enough, I don't push hard enough. Perhaps, I do not know how to promote myself, I do not highlight my acheivements openly, I don't know how to polish other people's shoes :)
If the job is not well done - I will take the full responsibility, it is my fault, perhaps there are some skills that I am lacking, some new opportunities that I did not grasp in time, some areas that I overlooked...I will step down. I take the blame...but I'm not going to carry the whole weight of the stress. If I do...I'm going to get a heart attack very soon :)

Pisau Cukur

Breakfast with Rufus & Sumen yesterday morning...and then it was back to work in the office :( Everyday I work till 8pm and I'd be back at work in the weekends (if necessary). Not because I wanted to stay back and work for longer hours (i don't get any overtime pay at all). It's more because that the job required me to stay and return in the weekends. I love my job. But I do realized how it's not doing any good to me, my health and my social life. Our time is limited to just 24 hours a day, and so how we spend it...is crucial. Because I feel that once in a while, we do need a reminder or two to bring us all back on the right track and to see what's really important in our life.

As busy as my professional life may be; I have to find the time to focus on doing the little things that makes me a complete person. Because at the end of the day; the pursuit of a sucessful career isn't an entity that I can rely on for happyness; but my life is :)

lost in transit

Rufus,

Underneath the moon, underneath the stars,

Here's a little heart for you,

Up above the world, up above it all,

Here's a hand to hold on to.

But if I should break, if I should fall away,

What am I to do?

I need someone to take, a little of the weight,

Or I'll fall through.

You're just the one that I've been waiting for,

I'll give you all that I have to give and more,

But don't let me fall.

Take a little time, walk a little line,

Got the balance right,

Give a little love, gimme just enough,

So that I can hang on tight.

We will be alright, I'll be by your side,

I won't let you down,

But I gotta know, no matter how things go,

That you will be around.

Don't let me fall.

Underneath the moon, underneath the stars,

Here's a little heart for you,

Up above the world, up above it all,

Here's a hand to hold on to.

You'll be the one that I'll love forever more,

I'll be here holding you high above it all,

But don't let me fall.

-Don't Let Me Fall: Lenka-

True Renaissance Soul

Lately, there has been too many office politics going around - mainly coming from Celtic, Trix, Stewart and Matte-Marit. I just go with my own style :) No one can really tell me to do this or that - I have to be true to myself and do things at my own speed. Moreover, it's important not to model behaviors you didn't like or that you don't feel right because that's what ultimately gives you ulcers and heart attacks :)

Right now, I don't expect anything anymore. I just do my thing. Whatever they want to comment; be it positive or negative...no problem. I take in the compliments and try to improve from their critism. This is what I call professional :) I'm not like some people who merajuk and in denial. Or like some people who like to blow a small mistakes into a big proportion. And yet these mistakes will not necessarily stain my reputations or dash my career aspirations.

I think by handling top-priority task well and getting the word out to the right people, my ocassional missteps will be overlooked :) I learn to live with the mistakes that I have made and learn to move on.

Soldiering on as best as I can; as fearless as my heart deems possible....with GOD looking out for me, my family in my hands and my dear friends on my back, it's solid ground I'm standing on. I thank GOD for putting where I am today, for shaping who I am today...in all those hardship stages, difficult times and trying moments - GOD have ensure that I pull through each time and that I manage to sustain everything.

Life is going great! Although a little hazy :)

pain is temporary, quitting is forever

Call me immature, rude, selfish, disrespect, no team spirit, emotional, rebelling, boycotting...whatever...I just don't feel like wearing that bloody shirt! Iron Butterfly had bought the whole Baz Team a Giordano "WE CAN DO IT" shirt and everyone was wearing it on last week Friday except for Damian and myself. Damian couldn't find the shirt while I told some concern people (including Iron Butterfly) that I brought the shirt to work, it's in my bag but I don't feel like wearing it! :) The words do not reflect how I feel that day. I cannot relate to it. I cannot do it. And yes, a small part of me wants to rebel against Iron Butterfly! :) I am against Iron Butterfly. I am furious, angry that Iron Butterfly did not ask Sumen to stay, angry that Sumen's effort was not being appreciated, angry that with such shortage of manpower situation...Iron Butterfly decides to park the Assistant Buyer permanently under D31. Iron Butterfly should at least let the entire department have a sharing basis until a new Assistant Buyer is on board. Then there is Trix who is instigating from behind and Celtic spreading...so yeah; I'm pretty being misunderstood by everyone right now! :) Whatever.

When we look at ourselves and others, do we have a tendency to see more of our own strengths and more of other people's weaknesses? If that is the way we tend to view things, we (sadly) will never be a blessing to others. There are people who tend to only utter criticism, but never encouraging words. And it is usually because such people find no room in their heart to accept, see and hear about other people's strengths. If there are people who are better than me, how should I react? I should accept that fact and be thankful for it. When we have a big heart that is big enough to accept other people's strengths & victories, we will be a happier person because we are happy for that peson. Let us strive to have a heart and mind that can accept other people's strengths, enjoy other people's victories and verbally acknowledge other people's talents & gifts.

It has been an emotionally challenging journey for me since my little brother's departure and with Rufus who is still grieving...I am emotionally very tired. I found myself in a pretty dark place. Between life, work, loss & family, it seemed as if everything was close to unraveling apart. The emptiness has been filled with shades of grey from my own inability to create spontaneous rainbows. I guess the Care Bear in me took a vacation :) I was so close to a tear ; but yes, one rule under yingze's roof...no tears! No tears of any sort! Only love, laughter and buckets load of joys! Hahaha.

This is 'lifelong learning'. I'm only 27. That's not a long time to have been around, but I treasure every moment I've been lucky enough to have, and I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I'll have many more to come. Even though, its not a very long time...yet I like to think that I've seen a fair bit in that short time. We all place bookmarks in our life to highlight and chronicle the passage of time. While some people delineate those milestones by happyness and joy, I tend to mark mine by pain :) I know that things will get better, hopefully tomorrow brighter. Goodness needs to come into my life and stay for a while...I will do better and re-act better. I take pride in what I do and it really does show how much I've grown as a person. My responsibilities and words to others have become much more important than my personal emotions or inadequancy. In fact, my work portfolio continues to give me the confidence and creates a focus for me to fight all of the negativity that I battle with everyday...but the truth is, they also give me hope :)

Take Every Moment, You Know That You Own Them.

It's All You Can Do, Use What's Been Given To You.

i'm standing tall, i'm walking tall

"sometimes you just need to be alone. sometimes, not even your best friend needs to know. sometimes, you need to put up the walls so you can examine yourself in the peace and quiet. sometimes the loud sounds need to fade away, leaving you only the silence and you; that's it".

life seemed so much more precious to me today...and my blog has become even more of a celebration of the everyday moments in my life.

i'm gonna skip along...quite merrily baby :)

a cup of love

Meet Joyce Wong!

A hot, petite, pixie-face chick; with attitude who seemed to party non-stop! :) And her hair...I love her short, punky and rock 'do. I didn't know that short hair can come in so many styles and I salute Joyce for being able to carry them effortlessly.

A few months back, I stumbled across a very hip, happening & interesting blog - KinkyBlueFairy. After popping in and out of her site, I've found myself quite entertained and deeply fascinated - for me it's like seeing how the other side lives. Ah, so that's what real party girls get up to! What a jam-packed life! She has so much energy. And I love her fashionable outfits. But I will never wear any of them! :) Dare not!

Joyce's pet project is Tongue In Chic - a very cool fashion blog that is based in Malaysia. It is such a cool platform for the shopholics, the local new & upcoming fashion designers & buyers, the media, the youths, the bloggers and the communities. It's definitely a regular stop for anyone who wants to keep in touch with fashion in the Asia region. I just love the range of stuff that she and her team covers. Everything from fashion shows, fashion events, bargain hunting, the latest trends, sales, designers, fashion ideas, fashion scouting trips in Hong Kong, Bangkok, China, the many media events, product launching, communication & branding conferences, social parties and many more. So damn happening!

To me, she come across as someone who is ambitious, fearless, inspiring and original. It's fascinating to read another person's detailed account of their life (what's more a life that is totally a different facet from mine) and then how that someone was at her lowest point, pick up her pieces, moves forward and then triumph in such a spectacular way! Her mix of dedication, professionalism and vision is clearly reflected in the quality of her writtings, the life that she is living in, her visions and perhaps the styling of her brand.

Sadly, Joyce has decided to resigned from TIC as Managing Editor last week to embark on new adventures but will still contribute to TIC on a freelance basis. Good luck :)

I've alway been a believer in doing what you're passionate about, expressing yourself how it bubbles out of you best, dressing how you feel for the day and brave from being a typical stereotype - Joyce

"I know there's a heaven"

(a life cut short. an untimely death. a loss) :(

"Our world changed forever when we lost our friend and brother Stephen".

That was how Ronan Keating summed up the turmoil the four grieving Boyzone members have gone through since losing their bandmate Stephen Gately. Flanked by Keith Duffy, Mikey Graham and Shane Lynch, the boys was in Spain where Stephen died last Saturday; aged 33, and from there that his body was due to repatriated.

Ronan added "We have come to Majorca today to accompany our pal on his final journey back to Dublin, where we will know he will be given an unforgettable send off tomorrow".

Thanking fans for their countless messages of love and support, the pop star even summoned up a smile and a humorous remark.

"Stephen, he said; loved being center stage and was probably looking down on us right now, wishing we'd move over so he could flash his smile for the cameras one more time".

"Stephen's mother didn't want him to be alone in the dark, so Ronan, Keith, Mikey and Shane have stepped up and will sit with Stephen's body" their heartbroken manager Louis Walsh explained. "He was like their little brother and they want to be a friend to him in death as he was to them in life".

(news & pictures from hellomagazine.com)

workplace trauma

Sumen Kwaina,

My little Indian brother...your departure this week from The French took everyone (especially me!) by surprise. I was shocked! You were very firm & stood your ground and couldn't be bothered whether Iron Butterfly will eventually release you or not. You didn't even give Iron Butterfly a chance. I salute your courage and boldness :)

To Iron Butterfly & perhaps to many, you are very disorganized & messy :) and have caused many troubles & problems here and there for everyone (with me; being your partner in crime) but to me...today, at this very moment...you have blossomed into a smart, mature, sociable & confident little gentleman.

But now, I can't imagine my work life without you on our otherwise quiet stereo. You are the spicy chili in my tandoori. You are the sirens, the fireworks, the drums, the sparkle. You bring so much joy and laughter into my work life. Then there's your long, curly & beautiful eye lashes. And your cute puppy dog eyes. You're a wonderful and charming little person with a great big heart & personality. This Gundu will miss our weekly Tamil lessons a lot. I really am so proud of you. I hope you know that.

We all go through tough times. Unimaginable difficult life challenges. Sufferings. Difficulties that no one else would seem to ever understand. And the reality is, each of us would go through such situations; regardless of our academic accomplishments, work acheivements, beliefs, religions or material possessions. And recently I was reminded again of this statement:

What Makes A Person More Mature In The Eyes Of GOD Is Not The Actual Suffering Itself, But The Person's Responce Towards And During The Challenging Situation.

May GOD, The Redeemer and Source Of Life, give us all the strength and perseverance that we need to go through our life's challenges. However big. And however small. We are never capable of doing anything unless GOD gives you the strength and capability. And I'm so thankful to GOD for all of that!

Kurenga,

To my very best working friend,

My special travel companion,

My perfect match,

My unwavering strength,

My glow of inspiration,

My favorite Implantation buddy,

My efficient Operation boy,

My talented handyman

...you rock my world babe :)

foodie week :)

Christine & Hendry's Wedding, Gu Yue Tien Restaurant, Chulan Square - one of the best wedding's I've ever attended for many reasons:

(a) absolutely funny speeches

(b) a sporting groom singing to his bride

(c) great food overall

(d) wedding guests were fun :)

Makan Durian - with Trix, Damian & Drew. Drop dead delicious all the way! :)

New Business Opportunity - dinner was lovely. Chatting to Seth was great. And most of all, it was amazing for me to feel alive at 8.30pm :) Seth was brainy and fully awake in presenting the new business plans. Me. I'm an incoherent aching zombie with puffy eyes. Yes, I think this business plan can work; provided that I am willing to take the very tough first step and move out from my very own comfort zone. I want to do well on the money side of things and have more time for myself. Will give it a very lengthy thought. I'll cross the bridge when the right time comes :)

BBQ Plaza & StarBucks - I caught up with some old friends of mine yesterday evening - Miss Klein, Torres, Wyatt, Drew, Trix, Celtic, Mel Jag & Damian. We ate a very delicous pork BBQ meal and made our way to StarBucks for coffee and cakes. It's always so cool to hang around with good friends; talking, laughing, joking, gossiping and simply being yourself. Knowing that they love you for being you :) I am too tired to be ecstatic, but I am glowing with relief, joy and fulfillment. Days will blur into each other and I'll miss all of the details of my life.

Being entrenched with day-to-day living & work, I really don't get to spend a lot of time hanging out with my friends. As in, just hanging out and being silly :) Talking about everything and nothing at the same time. I know it's never going to be easy to do this sort of thing on a regular basis. So, I can only just be grateful when I do get the chance to have fun and celebrate life & friendship with wonderful people - both long lasting friends and new. Whatever it was; after a fun week...I'm all hyped up all over again to take on new challenges. I'm not tired anymore. I know what I want. I'm stubborn like that *wink*

i think i will be okay

Work Tales:
Prince Badminton Racquet Fair - RM4.8K
Kiddie's Fair - RM68.6K
Outdoor Adventure - RM96K

I am such a ding dong at times :) I finally understand why I am not as ambitious, aggresive and competitive as everyone else...I never work with the intention of acquiring the next promotion or getting the next position. I am paid for my work and I need to give & do my best. I want my family & myself to be proud of the work I do. If the promotions & positions come along, they are just the icing on the cake. So, I work honorably. I work hard and enjoy it :) Whatever I do, I do it well. When the sun sets and I retire...what do I have but relationships? :)

No doubt, I challenge myself with each project...I push boundaries and assess feedback as a point of judgement. There are habits that I have to teach myself to be accustomed to; its the way I analyze, re-act to and judge every instance of my job; which unfortunately has naturally now become everything of what my life is all about! Instead of focusing on the things that I should be doing right next; I was unfortunately dwelling on all the stumbles that I've made since. I've had my moments of whinning; so yingze's feeling better now :) she's gotten pretty jealous at the improvements & progress of her other fellow comrades that have been making lately.

I don't look at my experiences now as better than theirs. I know that currently, some people will envy me more than others, and it's always going to be like this - there is always someone better; always someone worser. Is life fair like this or unfair like this? I don't know...we humans...we like to give qualitative labels to the conditions in which we allow ourselves to live our lives. When the fact is just like this - A Flicker, A Moment & Then It's Gone.

headache in ZOUK

Chic Pop (Bazaar Fashion Flea Market), Zouk KL. 7am - 7.30pm. Organized by Tongue In Chic.

This is my first time that I am attending such an event so I was very thrilled, inspired and buzzing with excitement! :) I was really looking forward to this new shopping experiences and getting new clothes for myself. I need a revamp :) Sadly, my wardrobe these days consists of jeans, jeans, jeans, t-shirts, tank tops and some work shirts & a few work skirts. I've nothing decent to wear these days. I'm so afraid that I'll end up looking like a tramp at work or at a party. I usually look unkempt and messy :)

A fashion flea market being organized in a nightclub instead in the usual open area - I find the idea new, bold, fresh, creative, risky and different. I think this event will be a huge success. I saw lots of people; especially the young ladies dropping by; they bought so many things, the vendor's business looks good as well. The event showcases a diverse range of fashions. It caters to women who are seeking original, everyday, affordable, funky, alternative high-end labels and local upcoming fashion designers labels. There are some nice tops, lovely print dresses, great t-shirts prints, good quality garments, gorgeous handmade purse and jewelry. Nice fashions but I was not tempted to buy the stuffs. The designs are too hip, quirky, retro, vintage to my liking. So un-yingze :) The pieces are more like ready-to-wear-clubbing clothes to me. But I bought a very pretty ring though (similiar design to the middle picture). I actually prefer the design on the left but the available colors was not to my liking.

Baby Sis really bought a lot. She thoroughly enjoyed herself there. I love my sister's sampat sense of homor and her adventurous spirit. She never ceases to entertain me with her stories of weird-ass things.

Baby Sis really stock up to the max but I was suffering from a major headache. I find the air-condition was too cold (i was freezing in there) and then, there are some people who are either inconsiderate or don't have the common sense...by smoking in an air-condition room. If you want to act cool - please do it outside. Aslo bump into Bremen who is launching his very own fashion collections...and local celebrity bloggers Niki Cheong and Joyce Wong! :)

I think I will stick with the shopping malls instead :)

vintage & chic

Another bumpy week for me. I'm miserable with despair and frustration. It has been very hard and I'm not feeling as strong as I was. Long reviews, lots of exchanges, questions and interrogations with Iron Butterfly. I'm just so tired. Back to back - Subang Revamping, THO Opening, Bangsar South Opening and now Malacca Compacting. Everything that I had going for me - has suddenly ballooned to an unimaginable magnitude. It's pretty overwhelming. The life I lead now has somehow faded away. Yes, I make a mess, yes I struggle...yes I make mistakes...yes I forget...yes I lose things...and yes I am ocassionally late for my appointments...I don't know how to be both mentally and psychologically strong anymore! I'm meant to work towards something for my family. It's the least I can do for them.

I need a loooog break...and I don't mean the weekends. I truly need a long break that last for months :)

"i know it seems hard sometimes; but remember one thing, through every dark night, there's a bright day after that, so no matter how hard it gets, stick your chest out, keep ya head high...and handle it"

It’s not glamorous, but its life

sometimes the world looks completely different upside down

A long and painful week it was. I'm also feeling extremly exhausted. It's just that this week sucked big time. It's also one of those phase where it's been made clear to me that I'm not meant for this job. At all! At all! At all! I have never felt more useless or belittled. I'm bad with calculating risks and sticking to plans as well. I wish life was better (but it's not) and nothing is ever fair.

Work Tales:
Busy with THO and finally THO had it's soft opening yesterday morning.
Now will be busy again with Bangsar South...assortment review & implantation all over again! I want to puke already.
Sumen is away for holidays so I have to hold the forte alone. That means I have to do 2 person's job. I don't know whether I should have a heart attack first or start laughing like a psycho-maniac with crazed protruding eyes.
And then, more reports that needs to be generated for Iron Butterfly. Will be having a review with her on next week Tuesday.
Plus, the coming month's promotion plans. I have no idea at the moment on what product, range or theme to slot in. I can't even think. I'm just blank. I need to be inspired :)

the capital city can be a frighteningly competitive place

winners are simply willing to do what losers won't
giving up doesn't mean you are weak. sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go

from the inside...out

this is how i feel today

Bumps, Mums & Muffins

i think what messes me up most of the time is that i have these perfect pictures of how things are supposed to be

i'm semi-sweet & nuts

Selamat Hari Raya :)

Family Affair - my uncle & aunt threw a farewell dinner for my young cousin last night who will be leaving for London next week to pursue her law studies. It was also another significant opportunity for the Tang family to gather around the big table and to do some good catching-up. Big family bash with lots of good food :) Hanging out as a family and doing something a little special :)

Monday - no need to go to work :) Wee! I'm happy. Really, seriously happy :)
Oh, I need to go shopping soon. I'll have to look for something new to wear.

in life...you love, let go and move on.
or in most cases...love, try to let go and pretend to move on. deal with it as it comes.
forget what you feel, and remember what you deserve.

rule the court

Raya is tomorrow :) Yay! Really looking forward to the long weekend.

Work Tales - This week was another busy week for me. After wrapping up the Subang revamping project, it was off to THO. Visited the site, co-ordinating with the Suppliers, the COP team, the Store people, assortment review, implantation, inter-store transfer, got into a very heated argument with Iron Butterfly etc. I agree to disagree and I disagree to agree with Iron Butterfly. As with any new projects, I have learnt to trust my instincts, rely on datas generated and always plan, plan, plan to keep the business running financially and, in turn; to enable it to grow. However, Iron Butterfly have also been drilling me that I should be more open to new ideas and partnerships as not everything will always pan out as you may have imagined. Iron Butterfly have never ever stands on my side, have never been supportive or understanding, appreciative or acknowledging of my being. It is always the Top 6. I am an abandon child :) I'm not craving for attention, compliments or praises. Criticize with justification, with facts & figures, not for the sake of criticizing. I guess all bosses are like that. When the things are so perfect, they will still find something negative to comment about.

Sigh; at times it's so difficult trying to make wise decisions without having ample time to think things through. I wouldn't say I have blundered everything; but most of the time I find ways of improving my decisions only after they've been made :) *Argh* Of course, I try my best to consult my family, my seniors, industry veterans before doing anything drastic; but the truth is...nobody have the time to permanently be focused on my worries & problems. Armed with every valuable 2 cent's worth I gather; I have to make the final choice; and damn it isn't easy when I'm juggling with so many responsibilities. I just go with faiths and facts. I'm a hard worker, not so much an opportunist. Well, it's nice to know that I still have the energy to do these crazy tasks when it is required.

Then The French also organized the Majlis Berbuka Puasa - a gathering for the head office people. The food was delicious; I basically stood around with my fellow comrades, gossiping and giggling :) Then there was the bbq dinner at Iron Butterfly's house. Followed by a lunch date with Trix and Damien at Sakae Sushi. It was a foodie week as well :)

So, overall; I'm pretty tired and sleepy. Looking back - the last few months have been a very very difficult time for me - both professionally and personally. And, that sort of things affects me in many ways. Including not knowing how to have fun in different aspects of my life. So, I will use this long holiday wisely. I have realized that my situation is not a 'crossroad of life' scenario.

GaGa is sick :( Clutch problem.
Papa is also unwell. Baby Sis is also physically not fit. Mum is also very tired.
Heal the family GOD!

little miss sunshine

i know that i'm in a 'good place' right now :)
i guess i'm learning, little by little; that we decide what our lives are going to be. things happen to us, but it is our reactions that matter

And I was going through my tom-boy phase

I am thinking about >> Creating. Writting. Blogging. My Life Plans. Marriage. Motherhood. Children. My Family. Infertility. Cancer. Single Income. The Future. Love. Hopes. My Faith. Sensitivity. Sadness. Loss. Emptiness. Depression. My Community. The People Of My Life. Of Life. Of Death.
It's funny how age and time has the ability to project you with the above issues of the past and the future.
I feel I've come full circle :) I'm happy to re-visit the things of my childhood. And I'm not embarassed about the phases in my life at all. I actually think that it's quite charming, in an enriching kind of way. It's made me who I am. And I'm completely cool with it.

"Death is a challenge. It tells us not to waste time...it tells us to tell each other right now that we love each other" - Leo F. Buscaglia.

"Seeing death as the end of life is like seeing the horizon as the end of the ocean" - David Searls.

It's been a very long week. Did a lot of work-related stuff. But other than that, I just love being able to work alongside with some really wonderful people. There's something to be said when your place of work can nourish and encourage you in more ways than one.

chasing the sun

My School Break = RM43k

Go Outdoors = RM95k
I admit that they are not great numbers (even Iron Butterfly dismisses them)...but at the very least (to me); both of these Press Ad Campaign of mine manages to generate an additional sales income of RM138k for the stores & for myself. This fasting month have been a very difficult period for all of us. No Sales!! The Muslims community is fasting during this holy month, thus they don't play any sports and limit their outdoor activities during this period of time & mothers around the country are not letting their young broods out from their house due to H1N1 infections :(

I know that LIFE is a JOURNEY. There are UPS and there are DOWNS. As much as I don't quite look forward to the challenging DOWN moments, the reality is; it's part and parcel of our life. And I'm constantly being reminded again and again that what's more important is 'HOW WE RESPOND TO IT' when we go through those tough moments in our life.

These are the moments when I really felt incapable. Helpless. Discouraged. I want to win the sales battle badly but I know that I can't because even though the internal circumstances have been very supportive but it is the external circumstances (which I have no control of) that proves otherwise. I'm too responsible & overly committed I tell you. So yeah, I'm in a constant state of exhaustion lately.

I prayed and I asked for strength & wisdom. Nothing more. I'm very very thankful of GOD's rich blessings upon me. I just feel very guilty at times that my attitude, behavior and thinking do not truly reflect the pure Christian's teachings. I'm a sleeping church member, an in-active church-goer but I know that GOD is with me and loves me. There's always hope at the end of all the struggles. Just like how there'll be clear skies after the rain. And you know what, that was what kept me going, knowing that my struggles won't last forever (though it might feel like forever at that time). It's like a circle. After passing 1 test, I began to think that I can handle another bigger test.

I'm learning. Learning to go through the downs in my life with the right responce and the right attitude & treasure every single thing that happens in my life. Both the ups and downs :)

"we're still going stronger than ever"

Troy was in town over the weekend :) As usual, we makan-makan...we had our big breakfast in Paddington House Of Pancakes and then a small lunch at IKEA...chatting about clothes, siblings, work and life :)

I met Troy in 2003 when we were studying in Murdoch University; South Street Campus. We came back to KL in 2005, Troy then moved back to Setiawan to take care of the family shipping business...it's really amazing how we can sustain our friendship all these years with a distance gap between us. We sent each other text messages, letters, emails, phone calls and occasionally (if the time permits) Troy will drop by.
Our personalities were too different to begin with. Troy stays indoors. I stay curious about what the outside world has to offer. Troy prefers staying within the comfort zone. I am constantly thinking up of new adventures and ideas on what to do next. Ultimately, we are two very different people, with drastically different lifestyles, different ideals, different philosophies and different aims in life. But what makes us click? We don't have a clue :) But I guess we share the same values & feelings towards things like family, friends, health, work, money, stress, holidays, how we spend our time and future plans.
We had our moments of happyness :)

And as for romance - surprisingly it's not my parents that are bugging me with this issue but my dear concern colleagues at work. I guess I'm just not the type of person who is suitable to be in a relationship with anyone at this point of time. There are still so many things that I want to do, so many goals I want to acheive, so many places I want to travel to before I settle down. Maintaining a relationship wouldn't be at the top of my list, and it's very unfair to ask anyone to put up with that. Perhaps when I've done all that I wanna do, without restrictions, only then will I re-examine my priorities. Herein also lies the problem. At 27 years of age, not only is marriage is the last thing on my mind, I'm not even actively out there looking for a partner :)

Hati Malaya = 1Malaysia

Happy Birthday Malaysia :)

shear genius

Alas...Michael Owen finally scored his first goal for Man U! Yay! :)

Each day, I still wonder where life will lead me.

From Monday to Friday; my mornings are very stressful, busy and incredibly rushed :) It's like trying to run a military-like operation - 6AM GET OUT OF BED EAT MY BREAKFAST BRUSH MY TEETH GET MY CLOTHES ON GOES TO WORK MANAGING THE BUSINESS - where my troops are most unwilling and unreasonable at times. So my weekend mornings are very important to me. Relaxed, easy, no-fuss mornings - they are as precious as gold :)

Work Tales - Subang Revamping >> looks pretty good, shaping up quite nicely, needed a few touch-up here & there. Only left the Battery Operated, Fishing & Nautism elements that needs to be fill up ASAP. Iron Butterfly have been very demanding (as usual)...but I am not going to give in to her much; only partially. At the end of the day; if any problem arises - Iron Butterfly will technically forgets that she gave me the instructions or the green light for the 'Go Ahead Projects' in the first place and the arrow will eventually points back to me :) So I have to protect my ass first.

THO Opening >> haven't even visited the site yet.

There are days when I questioned my sanity for doing what I'm doing (i think that sort of things happens, especially when you are working 14+/- hours in most days), I think I'm quite stoked with the overall experience. Sure, there are hiccups and such, but I know that I have learned a lot. And, I even manage to have some fun along the way! Hectic is good; hectic means advancement! I really can't complain. Through the sweat and long hours, I know what I brought upon myself is worth every ounce of effort. Sure, at times...I've gotten very frustrated at myself, my incompetence and my inability to handle ungodly amount of stress.

I've finally come to terms with my anger and have turned over a new leaf :) I didn't kill anyone this week :) Yes, looking back they are pretty silly and unproductive. I've learned from my mistakes.

With GOD's Grace - I'm a lucky lucky girl indeed! I've got all of my organs functioning properly, my job & career, a supportive & loving family, meaningful friendships and just about everything that I need to sustain a sincere smiley face through it all :)

i am yingze

Blur - Midlife: A Beginner's Guide To Blur.

I bought their compilation CD and I truly love all of the songs in it. Truly they are the Britpop's pioneer. I'm playing their CD non-stop :)

Work Tales - Subang Revamping & THO Opening. Things aren't looking good. I lie in bed wishing the world would swallow me up :)

The past will be haunting me soon. Seth will be joining Celtic's department. Both of them...re-joining forces. Funny, how our life turns up to be after all these years :) As I begin to grow up...much wiser...much mature...I begin to view Seth & Celtic from a different perspective...a positive one though...because of them...of their attitudes & behavior...I have learned so much...expereinced so much...see so much...gained so much...no one actually came this close as I did...they have enriched & built me. Look at me now; I am carefree, I am an independent decision-maker, I have the freedom to call the shots and to enjoy the fruits of my labor :) No doubt, it really is about hard work and nothing else. There is just no substitute for hard work. But of course, you cannot work hard stupidly.

I am now in remission and strive to live a healthy, stress-free life filled with love and laughter :)

Every morning is a new beginning to something different

For the past few weeks, I have been praying to GOD to humble me down. This is because I have become very demanding, pushy, hot-temper, nasty, bitter, arrogrant...everything...due to WORK. I know that if I to continue to follow this path, many people will hate me...and I too will hate myself for it. I hate being like this but I don't know what to do :) So I pray.

And GOD did answered my prayers!...via Celtic :) Of all people, of all communication channel. And I accept them graciously. It's just that, I had a long day and...well; getting told off no matter how subtle it is...it doesn't do any good. I must admit, I was more angry and irritated by it all. But I finally took a step back and saw for myself...I am now finally convinced...I'm glad it came to me early and...I'm very proud that in the end I took them very positively. It's no loss. I'm truly humbled & thankful :)

"It's not unusual to encounter people who'd try to take shortcuts through life, or undercut you in their quest to get to the very top. In such a fiercely aggresive environment; ethics & intergrity have become secondary. Good guys often lose out. Yet, once in a while, it is very encouraging to still come across people who are capable of making a name for themselves through sheer talent, hard work & passion".

get up and go now

(1) Life is too short not to order fries.
(2) Give charitably, generously and anonymously.
(3) If you love someone, tell them. Don't hold back.
(4) Don't make a scene.
(5) Never regret staying at home with a good book.
(6) Learn to cook one dish really well.
(7) Remember that nice guys do finish first. If you don't know that, then you don't know where the finish line is.
(8) Thank You notes are to be written promptly by hand on personal stationary. Emails, phone calls and text messages don't count.
(9) It may be a small world but it's a huge planet. Grab every opportunity to see as much of it as possibly as you can. Most people don't.
(10) Keep your eye on the ball and follow through; both in sports & in life.
(11) Speaking of sports, pick a team and stick with them. There are a few things more important in life which is loyalty. It's a dying trait currently in short supply. Trust me. I'm a REDS fan :)
(12) If you feel the need to re-invent yourself, at least be original. No tattoos unless you're in the amed forces. No body piercings unless you become a pre-Columbian Tribal Aztec. No orange hair unless you join the circus.
(13) Learn from the bad as well as the good. Fall down, make a mess, break something occasionally. And always remember that the story is never over.
(14) Learn how to entertain yourself. Close the door, crank up the stereo & dork out. Invent new dance moves. Play the air guitar. Practise your touchdown moves. Too many people are self-conscious even when they're alone. Don't be one of those people.
(15) While you're at it, learn how to laugh at yourself :)
(16) When you realize that everyone comes from a dysfunctional family, life gets a little easier and you feel a little less crazy. The only normal people are the ones that you don't know very well.
(17) Happyness is not fame, money or power.

Exploit my talents

My Album of the year! :)

I love all of the 11 tracks in this CD :)

My favorites are 'The Show', 'Skipalong', 'Don't Let Me Fall', 'Trouble Is A Friend' and 'Dangerous & Sweet'. I love the unique, quirky, simple, arty & grass-roots lyrics and the indie, happy, poppy & not so main-stream sound. She's pretty, she's original, love her voice texture, her sense of style and most importantly; when she sings...she projects the right emotions. Not to mention, she have this super-relax, uber COOLNESS about her. Definitely the essence of her music! Lenka reminds me of Alanis Morissette - minus all of the anger of course :)

Baby Sis manages to get some free passes from FlyFm to catch Lenka's mini showcase at 1 Utama, New Wing. Emcee for the day was the lovely & hilarious duo of Ben & Phat Fabes (minus Nadia) who entertains the crowd effortlessly. They are basically 2 young guys who are good looking, charming, sweep everyone of their feet by talking about all kinds of crazy stuffs.

The first opening act was by this Singaporean male artiste by the name of Ariff...or was it Aliff? Then it was followed by our very own songstress - Amy Mastura.

Finally, Lenka & her band appear on stage and the young crowd went wild with excitement. Some parts of the performance were upmarket and stylish, but overall it was very cool, laid-back, arty, grungy and have an independent vibe to it. And the assemble were very cute as well; bringing their cute handicraft & small plush toy to decorate the small stage. Stylish and personalized :)

Her fans were happy, sparkly-eye and full of energy. It was thrilling, rewarding, pleasing and overwhelming for me. This is my first time after all; attending such a showcase :) Yes, I'm very ketinggalan in everything :)

In the meantime, I'll enjoy my weekend, and not look forward to Monday! :(

But I feel like the months just zoom by; thanks to the infamous thing that's called "WORK".

*Make a new dream, Yingze. Make a new dream*

NOTHING CHANGED IT. NOTHING MADE IT GO AWAY.

CIMB MALAYSIAN OPEN SQUASH CHAMPIONSHIPS 2009 - I am very very impressed that the Curve's Shopping Mall Management has the courage & creativity to bring in the tournament into the shopping mall concourse area! Wow! It's a very good exposure for the sport. When it comes to racquet sports in Malaysia, Badminton is the Number 1 all time favorite. Squash & Tennis have yet to reach such high status. But with such bold steps of having the tournament in a pedestrianized lifestyle shopping centre such as The Curve, it definitely will build the awareness and draws the crowd curiousity in getting to know the sport better.
The event was well organized...I love the glass court and the informative media kit.

I watched the Men Finals for a full 20 minutes between top seed Amr Shabana from Egypt playing against second seed Nick Matthew from England. It was a pity that I have to rush back home for dinner, thus I didn't manage to catch the Women Finals between our very own Nicol David who have created history when she bagged her fifth consecutive title by beating England's Alison Waters 11-6, 11-8, 9-11, 11-7 in the final.

I feel like a lazy blob right now :)

the road ahead is tough, so?

'STAY ACTIVE' = RM37K. What a relief! It does offers me...a glimpse of hope :) It was way better than 'a HEALTHY you' (RM14K). I've gained bits of knowledge here & there which will makes me better the next time. It's definitely also about me growing up as a person :)

I like to claim the month of August for myself. All of it :)
I want to indulge myself a little bit more. I want to sit back and remember the good things in my life. I want to celebrate the stuffs that really matter.
Today I celebrate happyness. My life. My family. My friends. My work. My self :)

A Heart At Peace Gives Life To The Body, But Envy Rots The Bones - Proverbs 14:30.